i feel awful.
i could not cease the pain.
ya, you're playing.
those are nothing to you.
this blog meant nothing to u at all right frm the fucking start.
wat am i? huh? you are gruesome.
but there's nothing i could do to alloy my overwhelming feelings of inadequacy.
my heart hovers around, my mind is tottering.
i'm going insane.
yes, i know i am.
no matter how hard i'm holding back,
how mani smiles, tears words i fake.
i could still see images of you , visualize the shape of ur face, ur eyes ur nose etc.
just cant be castrated from my mind.
sense of helplesssness , no matter how self deception i am or how i detested you, i cant contradict my misses.
damn alright.
childlike lucidity..my imminent death, repleted voices of urs.