yc&monkey

2007-09-25T11:55:00.000-07:00

chao chee bye. u go fuck ourself before u start pressing those shits in those smses.
u go fucking look at your fucking sent box. your fucking first email said last, your damn 2nd mail said last, your lanjiao sms on 23rd said last. WHEN'S YOUR FUCKING LAST?u think i wanna hear frm u? damn you lo. go la go tell everyone i'm a fucking bitch you think i fucking care? tts wat ya good at. who wanna contact yoo ar. si bhb. you hear wat shit frm me is ur tai ji la. you and ur ear taiji. wahlao even this one oso blame on mi oso wanna scold me. you fucking go hell la ok. you and ur pea brain cant tthink izzit. ya so childish lo. wahlao. you how old liao. still wan like tt. go suck ur milk la ok. don't you ever bothering my guy alright. like wat u said u'll be shit waiting to see me kena play by other guys. YOU OPEN YOUR DAMN FUCKING EYES AND WAIT! WAIT TILL YOU DIE !

shit you. i'm a whore bitch.
god damn you.

2007-09-24T23:20:00.000-07:00

TIAN KHOON.. PLEASE FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE.
GO AWAY CAN? YA JUST MAKING THINGS WORSE. I FUCKING HATE EXPLAINING THINGS AGAIN AND AGAIN. YOO SAID LAST TIME LAST TIME. WHEN'S YOUR FUCKING LAST TIME. STOP BOTHERING MY BOYFRIEND STOP BOTHERING ME.
YOU'LL NEVER CHANGE. YOU AND YOUR HELL THINKINGS!

BACK.. OFF!

2007-09-22T13:00:00.000-07:00

TianKhoon,,

wat am i to say? do i stand any chance to speak?
in camp, it's all about it for me. camp is me, i am camp.
everyone wanted to go home, crying calling all shit people who dont understand us.
right from the first day , it's so fucking tough inside that nobody could endure. some girls even ask mums to sign up any fucking course they could find to get out of camp. they say i'm the strongest inside. i didnt drop a single tear. coz i know, u'll be waiting for me, u wun want mi to cry. when i called yoo.. i could still be joking and laughing all that . of coz i'll be telling u abt my camp. all those shits i suffer inside who can i turn to? you... ya the only one. who would guess.. you only want sweet stuffs from me. how u expect me to be sweet talking shits to u when i'm dying inside. if i didnt care i wun even fucking call u. u know how high my bill was? if i didnt ask how are u wat ya doing how do i know ya working or doing watever shits. you would only say '' nothing, missing you'' wat esle u want mi to say?
till the day, i couldnt bear with their shits i called yoo. i cried for the 1st time. and yet.... u turn me away... saying all the things i never tot exist. yoo said.. '' if i remain so fucking weak u rather i stay in camp for few more months...'' , '' camp has nothing to do with yoo'' ya.. this is the first time i cried ever in camp.. friends looked at me,, stun. ya right, MY camp has nothing to do with yoo = i have nothing to do with yoo.
i didnt know how to face yoo. my heart was already dead i guess.. i was thinking and thinking. for whole 2 weeks i tried to face yoo i tried to speak.. but i couldnt.. i find nothing, but angry and hatred. finally, i guess no point for us to be tgt. i ask for a brk up..

but.. wat's ur reaction? so many smses. all your dirty words all your damns. all cutting me. i didnt cry.. at all.. i know i'm not longer yours. at one point it's all scoldings , then suddenly ya begging me to stay then suddenly u started scolding again. repeat and repeat. script after script.
i don't know how to react. wat i guy i had.. is this the guy i had for the past 7 months plus? i must be blind. u said i didnt pick up ur call. i lied now to pick up ur call. oh please.. thats onli at the 2 weeks that i'm pondering. at the 3rd week when i ask for brk up. all yoo do is hide behind ur fucking fone typing all those long fuck msges. if u really cared, you would have called even if i didnt pick up. no.. u didnt.... till i was so fucking sick of typing on my fone i called. did u ever call? all the way behind ur fone.. till now.. TILL NOW. wat am i to say?

i reject a guy in camp.. coz i wasnt really ready to accept all your shits. my friends tot, how could a guy actually treat his gf like this. u know how shock everyone is? my old sch friends my outside friends when they read all the msges u sent to me? everyone ask.. '' did he call?'' . did u?
why would i want a guy, who treated me like that? all you want is sweet words from me. everytime u call u want me to be like in the past. how can i? when i'm in tt fucking shit place? who doesnt call up bfs to cry and all tt? i did.. once.. and u turned me flat down..

too bad .. the guy i had now.. was all the way with me. he was the 2nd guy i rejected. but he's still there.. he wanted your fucking num, he wanted to ask wats your fucking prob treating ur gf like this.

tiankhoon.. i'm a girl.. i'm only standing 152cm 37kg. i'm in tt shit camp. i'm enduring. u may say, oh,, it's malaysia camp it's so easy 3 mths nia. it was totally hell.. we do almost the same things yoo guys do in sg ns. we carry guns under sun marchings . in class how i kena bully by the teachers there. how i got punish how i was treated in the hospital. i didnt even tell u all this. y? even if i tell u all this all ur reaction will be oh.. endure la. y u so weak. for wat use? all u say was '' is like tt one la.'' theres was one donno for wat thing u say i could ask the person in charge to let me out donno wat shit. WHO THE FUCK U THINK I AM TO MAK HER LET ME OUT? even is my parents came anyday right infornt of the gate they wun even let us meet. hu u think u are? u know how fucking strict it is? and u think everything's so easy. if it's so damn easy Y EVERYONE IS DYING INSIDE? think.. ok? tian koon.. think!

it's all too late.. and ya blaming all on me.. blame on my dyings inside.. blame on my weakness inside. too bad.. i'm strong. i endured already. i know i've be very strong inside.. yet.. yoo want mi to stay few more months..
till now.. i'm not even sorry for leaving yoo. coz i know ya so fucking shit. i dun feel guilty or watever. u know how many times i fainted in camp? tt day when i called when i first cried.. that was the first time.. in my entire life.. i nearly fainted after running 10 rounds around marching square and 3 rounds on beach going into forest up hills and back to camp.. in an hour.. early in the morning 6am. and teachers accusing me , calling me a fake that i donno malay. damn yoo alright.. tiankhoon. ya.. mayb i should stay few more months. that'll make u happy didnt it? it's so good that i fucking die in camp.

i'm with him for 2 mths plus. he had given me none of my 18 exs could giv. u know how hard he got punished in camp for secretly run to the hospital at night to see me? in camp we cant tok to guys like how yoo guys do outside. even letters we wrote were at the risk of being seen by teachers taken away by them. he wrote to me. everyday 3 4 times. when i got punished. he rush back to the canteen not caring teachers screaming at him just to buy a drink for me. he's there.. for all i had. i was touched. i couldnt find back the feelings i had for u after wat you've done. u may say oh he is in my camp wat if ya inside u'll do the same too.. no.. y didnt other bfs did the same things as u did to their gfs in camp? none u know... 7 mth plus.. for these shits u gav me.. i went back to yoo each time.. so many times.. i went back to yoo. but this time.. i couldnt.
wat i need is not space..

i love him..

2007-09-21T09:53:00.000-07:00

lalalax~ finaly had time to sit down infront of lappy write blog.
hmms,

MON,,
went dear's working place wait for him to knock off. was awkward lo! everyone's staring at me and stupid dear is laughing and laughing. stupid him. had ice lemon tea then wait and wait and wait -.-' . stupid ppl donno how to come work punctually! then rush off buy cake for my ahma then rush to bedok to his sg house. waited for him to bathe n everything then went downstairs wanted to eat. then blindly walk with him find his ppl. suddenly he stop infront of a table full of ppl , holy shit. so mani ppl. sibei paiseh. -.- . but they all eat le so we go changi then eat. rush cab down changi and waited for dear's mami to arrive frm new zeland. ^^
went deli france brought breads cakes blablabla and we 2 like er gui sia eat like siao haha. dear love the coffee thing haha. yummies. then when dear's mami arrive he wahlao eh machiam little kid lik that. '' mami lai lo mamai lai lo!'' even his bro cant stand him LOLS. dear ben ben one.
then tak his bro car brooooommmmmm headed to jb. to dear's house! finally can rest =)

TUE,,
morning woke up woke dear up then faster prepare go out le. he had to rush to work at 1pm! we woke up at 11am! omgsss. then sumore his house so far at wang hou holy . then rushrushrush tak bus la blablabla his mami oso rushrushrush haha. then i went home koon . ZzZzz at night irene came ! then i went over her house spent the night there. omgs her dogs are damn cute lo. nv see any dog lik tt one. so jiao one wan u sayang and sayang non stop one LOL. slp at 6am! WOHOOO!

WED,,
woke up on irene's sofa at 10 plus am . woke up the saw her ahma face ! wahlao eh han tio. so mani ppl watch us slp in the living room hahaha paiseh! then went up her room and slp till 11 pls am her bf came and pull us up -.-' then bathe eat blablabla then went out with her and her bf. frm perling to larkin to pelangi back to perling. holy. was out whole day , her bf drive car super power. walao eh, so fast for wat shit oso donno. back to her house 6 plus. bathe her dog i help to blow dry her dogs haha. then went over find joalyn then back to her house then wait for dear's call. he OFF ON THURS! ^^ fetch dear then went yam cha ^^ laugh like hell man. love irene!
MUACKS ! then went over dear's house.

THURS,,
hmms, did nothing lo. at his house rot.

TODAY,,
hmms, woke up then he bathe change to his working clothes then rush to meet his frenz yam cha awhile then rush down larkin le. reach larkin already 2 le. he pei mi eat mi fen fish soup . then abt 235 he rush off tak 170 go back sg work le... poor dear rush here and there =(
then i waked home then koon le haha. after dinner after show online then find frenz tok nor.
so long nv find them le. MISS EVERYONE! >.<>
tml dear work till 8 nahx. looking forward to the chalet? lols
mum kpkb nahx.. say i whole week not at home nv slp at home one treat home as hotel like tt =x ..

i know i've made the right choice.

2007-09-16T22:52:00.000-07:00

longlong time since i last post..
in army was a total shit.
firstly, mum got to know some of the other mums before i hop onto bus and arranged all daughters to sit tgt. there's four of us.
He, i met him in the bank.stupid malay bank, was suprised he same bus as me.
the journey there was oh my god. its so waywaywayway into the forest. damn.
got down the bus, checked bags and all medi stuffs were held. had a great mouth fight with that skinny guai lan kia. damn. finally he allowed my period medicines in.

got into our bedrooms. oh man, rows of bed and rows of blue metal cupboard. wat a small one.
everyone settled in, and got to know new frenz. there's 6 of us. the toilet was hmms, ok la. can make it la. but there's a bigbig pool in the middle, till now i still donno wats that for, perhaps for us to have water fight? well, there's wat we do haha.

then we waited and waited, more buses came. then, an ahlian came woah! red hair in short pants. IT'S OBJECTED! ONLY LONG PANTS ALLOWED. haax. at first everyone sees everyone lan si lan si one. in the end everyone got tgt. great friends..

in camp we eat chicken, fish everyday. the food sucks. the vegs were swimming in soup yucks. were more like in jail. u know those plates we eat in. and theres onli spoon! god, wat a hard chicken. then problems came..

spoons not enuff, onli chinese allowed to use.malays and chineses had to sit tgt, malays like to sit near the rubbish bins and chinese prefered under the biggest fan. damn that biggest head there , we call her , puan. lao cu nu. haas

we had classes, total rubbish. playing stupid games and i don understand a single ass. then teachers came against me. only me. asking me going back singapore la go singapore ns la! wtf alright. saying i fucking lie to them pretending i dunno malay. i nv even hear b4 malayisa national song! shits~

life in there was bad. everyday marching. morning wake up 5am exercise 615am. exercise running and running , doing pumpings all the bain tai things on road. bare hands on sharp stones. pain. running on sand saeshores road into the forest blablabla. and every fri, we had aerobics. at first was fun then, every week same songs, sian!

every sun we chi get to go out to go temple. haas that's the place He first tok to mi. " y u cut ur hair? " wahlao. my poor hair was like shit in there. was smoking when he approach. we're not allow to smk in camp, no toking to guys.writing letters will be held. we always say. toking and writing letters will tio baby lao lei. buay ta han ! wat a world.

the marchings and trainings was tough for me. nearly fainted lots of times.
went into the hospital there for 1 week and had 3 holes poked. fever 39.5 knn de. more 0.5 and i'm a idiot already. even go medi hav to wear full lori and that stupid heavy bag. damn.
went in the diao shui 2 bags , fever same, went outside hq see doc took my blood then giv me stupid pills. then back in hos inject at my butt. FUCK MAN. i tot i was going to die in the camp. i fear not able to recover. frenz were great. they help mi wipe my body to cool down my fever. bring me food and drinks they pay haha. He, finds all reasons to go near medi hos to see mi haas. i remember how shocked everyone was when they heard i diao shui. the docs were sot. made mi bathe and bathe 4 5 times a day in cold cold water. then wipe body with ice water. damn! it was hell alright? even when i'm out of hos i was still coughing and sneezing. it was thick yellow. many ppl same as me, but i was abit more serious nia. cough for abt 2 mths? voice super sexy de lo. knn de. no voice diao use book and pen write haha.

under sun was awful. 5 6 hrs under bigbigbig sun. i'm malay skin now. damn. punishment was fuck. one for all all for one. LETS ALL SHOOT THOSE PIGS IN THERE!of coz we had to live in the stupid forest. it was fuck fuck fuck. different colours ants no bathe no nth. shits. teachers folling us like dogs. had my arms all blueblacks. walking in the middle of the night all of us, 18 km. fuck man.

till the day we left, everyone was crying. even the guys. those botaks crying lik hell. i'll miss everyone there, but not the things we do there. i love my friends. i've come to learn wat true frenz are and how it feels like having frenz around u and understands u. i miss the fights we had. water fights blablabla. once me n ah bi fight till the cupboard fell HAAA! power right. -.^
irene joalyn ting ahbi ning meiling nicole jieying peipei ! i'll nv nv nv forget . all of us as one heart.
seven letters. F R I E N D S ! .

He & I were one.
ai ni hao xin fu.
i'll nv find sumone hu loves me as much as him.
i'm blessed..
2 mths 2 days...

2007-06-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

heyhey! firstly HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAISIN ! MUACKS.

today last day of work. damn, was getting so sad haha, miss everything there. boss gave me boxes of mini bear tissue box gods, so cute. THANKS BOSS!
da today go work nahx, dun get tired ok. MUACKS.
tml's gonna be a long day. need to go bank open stupid account for the stupid army.go this bank that bank goddds.
gonna meet amanda on thursday, yes! she's gonna pei mi go cut my poor hair and watch movie=) THANKS GER.
will be so busyyyy, have to print my name in all my clothes , slipper and everything. and i'm still thinking how to print and should i print name on my bra and panti oso hahaha! brought cheap stuffs anyway, so THEY WANT STEAL THEN STEAL LA! scared ppl steal my stuffs. =(

hopefully i had fun there. and that i come back in one piece!
thanks kaisin for ur concern nahs! i will take care one. AND YOO TOO! must eat ok!
and to xiang, wei, nick & eugene, thanks for calling, miss yoo guys lots, after my army YOU ALL DUN MIA OK! i'll BE BACK!

AND JULI! come back sg only after i'm back frm army ok!!!!!!!!!!! cannot cum back before i'm back =((((((((( i'll cry loud loud! hahas.

miss da, MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSSS i'll try to cum in on thurs ok? muacks.

2007-06-10T06:13:00.000-07:00

Firstly HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EIRC =)
sorry i came only on 2nd night sumore so late.
i rushed all the way thru after my work and my farewell dinner with bosses.
it's great to see everyone again.
i may not be part of the group nor close to yoo guys, but i'm happy that i was there.
i wish i could be with yoo guys more often. =)
i know not any of yoo will be reading this, but, i hope i'm not forgotten by yoo guys.
i'm sorry if i've done anything that upsets yoo guys, i know i cannot be there with yoo guys at the bad times but, i just want yoo guys to know that ya all not forgotten by me.
i'll be going army soon le, just next week omgss. yoo guys tak care ok? no more quarreling .
gone for 3 whole months, was so scared that no body will remember or think of me hahas.
even when in chalet, i didnt know wat to say to yoo guys oso, keeping quiet is better than saying wrong things right =) gonna miss yoo guys .

And to my boy. sorry for all my nonsense. tak care when i'm away. i love yoo. and i relali miss yoo lots. bb muacks dada .

i really dunwan go army DAMN!
=( SOBBS.

2007-05-17T06:01:00.000-07:00

woke up late today omgs, rush all the way to my work place.
i reached at 845 goodness, heng my boss always come at 9 hahax. still got time got a puff =x
all coz of my stupid sis always dragging.
it's fun at work today, alot of laughs. and alot of people cuming in and out too.
making mi bored staring at the com and my boss thirty of toking and toking and toking. poor him. watched finish the wizard of the oz. =) and beauty and the beast =) he dl for mi haha where to find such boss man! haaz!

went home at round 545, it's such a relief to go home. so tiired. finally sis went out i could use com. called da but he seem tiired so let him slp ba =) muacks da.
oh man, now watching the 9pm show. so damn sad. stupid guys. mak wife lik tt fuck ! sobx sobx.

stupid wei kip laffing at me in msn. we muz be emotional u know? arbo we'll be cold blooded.
everyone should watch the 9pm show at channel 8. it teaches alot of things. i hope da watch too so that he can learn out of his woodblock haha.

love ya lots da. MUACKS.

2007-05-15T19:11:00.000-07:00

i hate laiang ar! stupid cramps. had a terrible day today and ytd.
good that i have a great boss who allow me early knock off 2 hrs ytd. the pain is killing me.

so many things to fan. oh god pls dun them take mi to army can? fuck man, god damn army. hell awaits me 17 june. do pray for me ok. miss me many too ok! my boss was laughing his feet off. meanie. but he says he'll wait 3 mths for me then i can cum back work after my army. =) good boss yay. but .. poor boy nahx. i guess we'll be losing contact for 3 mths. AND I BET HE'S GONNA GET ANOTHER GER! if only he dare la haha =x

i hope to work longer then study ltr . but mum's nagging lik siao. she doesnt wan mi go back work after my army, BUT I ALREADY PROMISE MY BOSS I'LL BE BACK AFTER 3 MTHS. damn man. reali donno wat to do. haven even start on my portfoilo yet. NO DIGI CAM AR! damn. i'm so so so so so stress. donno y mama so kanjiong.

these few days kip quarrel with boy. not normal quarrel. IS BIGBIG QUARREL WHERE MEAN THINGS ARE BOOM BOOM BOOM! hurtful nahx. haiz. i oso donno wat to do nahx. i'm the bad one , u see.

been wanting to change my frenster and blog but no time! so ugly .

frens frens frens. i love yoo guys. i may not be around so often but i'm still here when u need me.
zhii,ying,hui,juli,junhao,jinbao,xiang,nick,eug,wei,
jukebox,tommy,amanda,yuewei,kaixin,fiona,via ,..,..,..AND MANYMANY MORE! ^^

boy, i love yoo so.

2007-05-02T07:54:00.001-07:00

sis out today, so i'm here onlined!
so long nv online.
cant slp last night feeling super terrible today at work.
damn. my work is making mi stress out.
all the delivery order, invoices, purchase orders, payments, blablabla!!!!!
well at least i have a good boss.
i think there's no more boss like that.
treat mi lunch everyday FREE LUNCH. SAVE MONEY. =x
workwork smk more and more. damn, boy kips wanting mi to quit.
he kips saying i no care him coz i no quit for him =(.
i dun lik ppl making mi change. but i'll try . cutting down to 5 sticks a day. =)

ytd was our 5th month anni =)
da came in jb with his temp pass tt allow onli one entry and it cost $15! fark so ex.
met at larkin bus station at 930am. damn early. had peng lo-ti for breakfast YUMS!
then we went to ask whether is there any bus going to jusco .
hopped onto a bus going kota, OFF WE GO!
as we donno the way , was feeling a lil worried if we get lost. but thank god we didnt fell aslp and we overheard the youngers sitting behind going jusco too! so we followed them haax.
wanted to wastch spiderman 3 but the queue was lik WHOA OK. so bloody long. and by 11am all slots till 9pm one all FILLING FAST . if we queue up oso no tickets left.
so we decided to walk around. seeing at clothes. didnt buy any coz dun wanna waste so much money. ate charted fries yums.

ate fish market for lunch SO NICE. da order one got prawn one then when they serve they fire it cooked infront of us. OMGS. niceniceeee yumms. da didnt like taking pics =( I'M GONNA FORCE HIM TAK PICS SO I CAN UPLOAD. HEAR THAT DA! ^^

went home on evening coz tiired nahx.
send da go larkin bus station then went home le.

mum brought famous amos YUMS! but cannot eat alot ltr got alot of pimple.
hais. i wish i'm prettier haha.

going chalet with da this fri. the birthday ger had a crush with my da! gods. pluck out all her hair and mak her bald! =x
well check out how she's like then. =)

hmms, wonder wat happen . everyone's blog weirdweird.
should catch up with yoo gers soon. I MISS YOO PEOPLE!

i'll try hard to make this relationship work.
i'm sorry my love.

2007-05-01T07:23:00.000-07:00

nearly one month never blog omgss! haas.
been so busy, working on weekdays and weekends go da house. =)
com spoil nahx, sis dun let mi sue her lappy idiot.

miss everyone alot . don't forget me ok. i'm still here breathing air.
hahas. tak care guys.

HAPPY ANNI MY LOVE.

2007-04-07T23:18:00.000-07:00

everybody's starting a new life.
working earning shopping going poly.
y izit that everyone got sumthing to do sumthing to hold on to to look forward to..
when i dun seem to have any.

everyday life bored mi.
working earning but cant touch the money.
juz in case i goo nafa i had to use tt money that i'm earning now.
damn.
i wish i could party like everybody is.
beaches bikini shopping eating yumss
having a great family, all happpy and all.
or perhaps a smarter brain , get good grades, get into good schools have great frenx?
maybe prettier too? taller?
i guess richer might be better.
going round the world, seeing how mother earth is like.
and not just watching tv looking at how other ppl are enjoying in tt programme.
i wish my dad's here. i miss my little brother.
i miss all my friends.
people say frenx would go apart to different world paths of their life.
but why izzit that my family are juz lik my frenx?
good times dun last. juz like meeting da every weekend. time flies.
i wish i could spend more time with him. no quarreling with him.
i love my dad, i love my family. my frens. my boy.
but hu am i to deserve any good times. hu am i to say i wan this i wan that.
jus lik wat boy say. i always tok lik i'm so experience such an expert, but i aint showing
any of those damn thing in my real life. why am i not performing.. why am i always the one at the back.
cant i hav the chance to go forward? can i dun go the safe way? can i takes risks?
i'm not even sure how am i going to face the cuming years down the path that my dad had created for me.

the shame in me. within it has never stop hurting.
customers tell my boss that i'm good. i smile alot. do i?
i dun even know when's my real and fake smiles laughs at home.
home is the place comfort is, where everyone's there juz for u.
dad mum sis bro. y izit that mine's short. the only man, first man in my life since i first enter in this damn world. faded.

i wish i could go thru everything with my current boy, i wish he could pull mi thru my way. i wish he will be the one. i don't know, will he be the next heart ache.

2007-03-19T23:27:00.000-07:00

longlong post!

friday da came in jb company mi go cs find jobs.
it shocked mi as we walked down shops , all shops wanted ppl .
went into few and interviewed.
then da say i wu liao. coz i waiting for a tissue factory to reply my application and i'm there at cs telling them i got no job when i didnt wanna work at all.
i guess working at cs is no fun at all , all so ke bo one.
lunch time onli 1/2 hour omgss.
after that interview till tiired le decided to go back da house , then came the fucking rain. damn.
walked thru da rain reach sg to da's bed and koon. woke up ate sakae sushi yums!then rest of the day da pei mi watch my fav animal planet =).

SAT
went funan with da to fix his poor lappy. took mrt such a longlong way.
couldnt find da shop walking rounds and rounds then the stupid shop does not appear in the list of the shops on tt level! idiot. hiding in a corner.
da's lappy 2 years old already LOL with lots of scatches . while the person noting down the scatches on his lappy , da laughed and tt guy laughed too. coz too many le cannot finish noting down. omgss. so throw face -.- .
after we lefted, the shop knock off le. at 8pm so early. went for sum dimsim da's not feeling well nahx. then afetr that go bugis zoomzoom the n took bus wanna go back woodlands.
the fucking bus so mani ppl. had to stand. then both of us are not feling well le. da kipp trying to mi feel better kip sayang my head.
when i was abt to feel better , a family of indians board the bus and sqeeze us . and they are so stinky that i feel bad again. da oso feel lik vomiting le. so we juz anyhow alight.
it's such a relief to alight frm tt stinky bus.
but we end up no where. buses are all full and we're lik idiots siting at the busstop thinking which bus to tak go where. after around 1/2 hour we decided to go back bugis -.-
went up the overhead bridge and zoom there . kinda weird to zoom at overhead bridge haha 1st time. ppl giv us weird faces.
walked down to the busstop juz nice one 960 came. and it's empty! FINALLY A BUS TT IS EMPTY! GODDS.
board da mrt and headed to marina then back to woodlands.
da is like a lil kid -.- kip bugging mi for Mac . so we drop off at admirty .
then da spot marcus they all!
they invited us for a drink at marcus house.
it's been so long since i last see them.
i even saw aisha haha.
miss everyone lots.
went over marcus house. da was learning piano from adam.
eric xiang jie all drinking.
playing majong and poker cards. then xiang jie drunk LOL.
they finished marcus's dad's supreme donno wat haha donno how to spell.
all jiu gui! then went cheers buy vodka and i brought lime drink to go with vodka.
didnt drink much nahx. da say cnanot drink so much. hind da's advice haha.
after that around 430am went back da's house with kendrick . while the rest continue their fun.
it's been so long since a hang around le. miss yoo guys lots. with the gers were there too. tot of the old sweet fun times. I MISS YOO GUYS =( yuewei kaisin via fiona .. and the big bunch of guys. hang around sumtimes alright? =)

sun was a tiired day. stayed at da's house whole day. didnt feel lik going home. called home and tell mum i'll be cuming home today instead. so today da pei wo to larkin , ate dunkin donuts! yums! then ate mac , weird that jb still hav mac chicken haha. but da eat le then feel lik vomit -.- da going sick le. =(
came home then mum broke the awful news to mi.
the tissue factory ask mi go work tml. damn!

oh man. i wis i could hav fun lik everyone esle. party.beach.shopping.loves.frenz.
but i'm gonna struck my 8-5 work routine =(
i miss my boyy . da, ya the best da in the world!
i know da dote alot on mi. everytime cum in jb fetch mi in and out. lov ya lots! muackx.

2007-03-15T22:53:00.000-07:00

stayed at home today nahx.
miss da lots. kinda weird without him.
period had been giving mi a hard time today
cramps! so pain =(
ate alot of pills today
then mum brought new pills -.-
six western pills and half a bottle of chi one.
cant even eat . poor mie.

watched bai she ju ta the whole day today.
juz to ease the pain.
tried to slp in the afternoon but the stupid thunder is so loud and scarey
made mi jump as it claps =(

bored without da and animal planet.
once my period is over i'll be sg again!
once my job application is successful
i got no time pei da le =(

haiz. my mum's nagging again
saying god punish mi canot go poly coz i nv study
blablabla
well, at least for today she turn her cursing to the students hu could go jc but went to poly instead. damn them !

my future is so uncertain...

2007-03-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

updates updates!
alright, here i am! =)

tot after my last day of work will be freeeee
but fake one.
hais cant get into poly coz of my stupid maths.
due to my lazinessssss =(
wanna try nafa but the stupud sch onli open for sg students this period
foreigners hav to wait till next yr damn.

meanwhile had been away frm home
cant stand mum's naggings.
oh gods !
is like came home for awhile then went boy house then home then boy house -.-
mum is lik kip asking mi going for interviews that she had planned for mi and the sending of emails of the polys asking bugging polys to mak my application a success oh gods ..

been so lazy lately.. donno y
even lazy to go shopping -.-
cant stand the heat outside.
boy say i'm spoilt by him and my family =(
everyday at his house aircon tv makan onli =x
yepyep i lov boy house's tv hahaha
ANIMAL PLANET ROX =X

love being at boy's house.
few days ago was boy's niece kelly bday =)
wanted to buy toys for her but boy say juz buy a book.
she's been spoilt and no body brought anyhting for her coz she's too naughty that nobody reali likes her -.-
but anyway brought her a powerpuff ger colouring story book =)
i guess she didnt like it and she got a bad scolding frm her parents
but she always say she love powerpuff gers -.- oh well nvm, she still colour till so song haha

each time boy's whole family came back the house is always so lively
laughs and jokes. i wish my house's like that =)
at da house i'm lik a lazy queen wahahaha
love da lots =)

went to sum interviews but all not success haiz. i donno malay got wrong ar i onli 18 nia doesnt mean must study one right , so scared ppl work liao then run then dun hire la. idiots.

now tami so damn pain lai ang so much. y muz gers lai ang ! cant it be da boys!
miss my da damn lots .
wan da hughug slp =)

2007-03-04T02:57:00.001-08:00

enjoyed my last day of work on 28 feb =)
misss my days at the bank.
no more work le boredddd
and no more money cum in!
sianx.

went over da house after last work then this morning then cum back =x
at da house nv go out nahx.
few times meet chris for zoom zoom
went up to chris house few times oso for his new com
he donno how to do with it -.-
then end up when we went up he already using it le -.-
bluff us idiot.
and he even wanna kick mi outside da house! damn. LOL

wanted to watch movie last night but not much of nice movie
no nice seats oso then went home go cycle haha
da so lousy one. long long cycle then no strength liao -.-
then i havta walk on slopes lol
but nvm nahx, lov da lots =)
ate alot and getting fatter le
FAT ON TAMI OMGS.
=(
even da oso say i fat le =(

stupid one, everyday at ur house eat so much then kip slp of coz fat la! wahlao poor mi.
ytd was sis bday and i forgot -.-'
sorry jie =(
anyway ur bag haven cum lo -.-

da brought mi a necklace =)
muackx da =)

hais if cnanot get in poly then going kl study le.
haiz i dunwan go kl.
sadded..

2007-02-20T23:43:00.000-08:00

3RD DAY OF CNY

2nd sis . elder sis . ME!

sis's bf make for her one nice right =)

my whole family from mum's side =)

2007-02-18T06:26:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYBODY =)

woke up early in da morning
went cold storage at pelangi with nz uncle for tml's lunch BEEF STEAK! YUM~
went home
getting ready for everything
had a great lunch cooked by my beloved mum
sis woke up so so so late and
when my uncle and his family came , mi n my sistas aint ready OMG!
RUSH RUSH RUSH

bathe and chnage into new year clothes
came out of my room got oranges and bai nian with mum and granny
ANG BAOS! YES MAN!
=x

me bai nian to my mum =) cant see face one -.-

went downstair to feed cats with leftover fish
AND SAW TWO OF MY COUSINS CHATTING DOWNSTAIRS!
claiming my house is too warm
-.-
it's been so long since a had a good chat with my 2 guy cousins =)

went back home abt 45 mins ltr? then watch dvd pan's labyrinth
IT'S DAMN GROSS -.-
all the cuttings and killings oh god.
was smsing with boy all along =)

after uncles all went back.
mum prepared for dinner YUMYUM~
went over to my dad's place after dinner
seen my cutie little ahboy
haiz he's so big le.
was kinda sad when i left.
miss those days with my dad.
i'm glad he's doing better then last year.
may god bless him with food on his taable everyday
and guide him thru his path down his life.

i love my dad.

will be going sg tml =)
MORE ANGBAOS!
hahahaha
and boy's coming msia while i'm going in -.-
cute seh -.-''
but nvm i'll be staying overnight on mon night =)
misses da lotslotslots.

and on tue night will be having a dinner outside including both sis's bfs lol
i'll be so lonely!
and my stupid nz uncle offered to be my date
and promised he wun hold my hand too hard -.-
FUNNY ya. wat an uncle i have .

2007-02-17T00:36:00.001-08:00

first yoo said busstop waiting for bus
then u say at ur bro's car
then u say at ur auntie's house.

well.
nice way yoo got..

i'll get away.

2007-02-15T21:42:00.000-08:00

it's been awhile since i post.
lazy post la =)

everyday was working life.
now i'm at counter serving ppl.

on 9th got back my results.
was suppose to meet up with yuewei outside sch
but there was so mani ppl there already lol.
our usual place =)
went in hall, we're late! goodness.
hear loke toktok.
was going crazy when i see ppl going up to tak their results.
i wonder wat will mine be.
got 24 points.
i chose all design courses =)
juz hope i could get in one. =(

ytd's val time's day =)
took leave on 14th
went over to da's house on tue night =)
brought him a pair of earrings haha lik girl lik tt =x
didnt hav the time to buy anyway. haiz.
he didnt get mi anything =(
was kinda disappoint.
and his excuse was heartbrking.
but still.
i had my day with him at cwp =)
ate seoulgarden and saw many many ppl lol.
then went for movie ghostrider =)
it's nice haha. then by the time already late le.
shop for awhile. then went back da house.
stayed for half hour then went home le.
saw tt stupid chiawei on my way home too hahhaa.
da sent mi back to larkin =)
muackx da.

where in this world will yoo find a guy huz willing to go in and out of jb juz to fetch yoo in and out or juz few hours at cs. oh man i love my boy =)

sweetie wishes =))

2007-02-01T04:15:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
geex. ^^

stayed at home today =)
coz i still got work tml so decided to go cel with my frens and my boy on weekends =)
*thumbs up!*

woke up in da morning.
i'm so glad it's a public holiday in jb on my bday!
wahhahaha
so i no nid waste my leave =)
had calls flowing yes yes yes!
wahahaha all wishing mi bday =)
glad they still rmb mi =)
i lub them lots.
haha

ate bak ku teh for lunch
mum brought mi a digi line =)
and went gaint and lavander for my BDAY CAKE!
yums~

i'll meet up with yoo idiots soon =)
REMEMBER MY PRESENT!
geex.

oh man.
cant believe i'm 18 today.

today is our 2 mth anni
MUACKX DA .
=)

2007-01-23T20:41:00.000-08:00

working as usual nahx.
hav not enuff working clothes.
everyday wear lik same lik tt.
fuck one.

it's holiday on my bday!
WOOTS!
i wanted to tak leave on 2nd feb which is on fri so tt i can hav longlong weekend
but boss say cannot =(
too mani ppl on leave le.
damn!

mum brought stuffs for mi to eat in office
but i no time eat
and i forgot to bring it back !
sotong mi. too excited to go home hahhaa.
sick of tt cold office.
stupid cheques stupid ppl.

actually meeting da today
but change to tml..
mum kpkb lik siao.
-.- say dunwan eat then got eat again.
haha

today's my stupid idiotic kor's BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! YEO CHIA WEI!
wish yoo longlong sweetsweet with ur yiai =)
18 le sia. LAO AH GONG!

ya my one and onli.
lov yoo lousy =)

2007-01-22T09:03:00.000-08:00

boos.

my life is so bored.
i miss sch.
i miss wearing sch U
i miss sch food
i miss everyone
i miss those days
i miss everyday foodcourt
i miss siting beside shilah
i miss teasing weekeng hui ling
i miss aisha syz
i miss sitting at canteen
i missing sqeezing bus to sch every morning
i miss books
i miss teacher's naggings
i even miss my sch shoe
=.=

damn.

boy i love yoo lots.

2007-01-07T11:15:00.000-08:00

soooo long nv update le.
ya finally onlined =)

newyear went to durian with my lousy.
took bus frm woodlands all the way to marina
feel lik vomiting -.-
walkwak around saw many marsiling ppl .
the place is crowded when it's onli 830pm!
ohmy goodness .

then smk, rest then sqeeze into the durian.
inside is more crowd LIK PEANUT BUTTER.
then we decided to go up the brigde.
the left side of the brigde already pack le. so we went to other side which is further away frm the fireworks.
then suddenly they say the road is open!
coz they blk the road
then mi and lousy waked to the most front and side on the black hard road -.-
then begining no body one
then more and more pack till we hav to stand up
and most suay SUDDEN RAIN AR.
but mi and lousy still stand there la.
so we were at the front all the time.
at 10pm the building there got small fireworks =) it's kinda suprise .
next is 11 then 113o . if i nv rmb wrongly lol.
then waiting lik shit hell for 12 am.
it lik all pack till cum sqeeze mi and lousy.
the fireworks were wonderful =))

but the going back was not nice at all!
sqeeze all the way thru donno end up where.
wanna find one fucking toilet so fucking difficult
then cnanot even cross the stupid road they donno y blk ppl frm crossing
then everyoe pekchek ALL ANYHOW CROSS LOL.
then we anyhow oso haha.
no bus no taxi no mrt
and they say mrt walk here and there
then end up all kena bluff
wak lai wak qu end up at donno where one.
fuck lo. then we had to wak damn longlonglong way to donno where de busstop.
then took NR2 go yishun
stand all the way with my heels. fuck.
then reach yishun took taxi back to lousy house.
lousy say next time no transport dun go to such stuffs le.
had fun anyway =)

now i'm working at ocbc bank at jb.
pay abt 900++RM lo.
lil la, but nvm la got work then work lo.
everyday lik so fucking sian lo.
sort out cheques
tak cheques
cross it then record it
blablabla
then wear muz wear properly
wahlao eh. muz wear heels ar.
wear till so xinku.
=((
i hate heels!

miss lousy dearly when at work, coz no com one.
now then i know in bank most stuffs are done by hand .
mak my hands tiredd

and everybody there knows mi!
coz they all know my mama -.-'
ppl all cum and say '' ya adeline's daughter ar? ''
-.-''

very paiseh =(

then eat oso eat alone one.
there no chi one. around mi all malay -.-'
then nvm lo eat alone. everyday so boring =((

weekends try my best to cum into sg so i can be with lousy =)

sorry jayson i nv attend ur bbq i hav ta work the next morning, so i wasnt allowed to go .

anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE =)

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAYSON AND TO AMANDA!
=))

2006-12-29T13:46:00.000-08:00

today is my last day of work at medibanc.
yes la got my pay.
thou little.
but nvm la not much work oso.
216RM nia.
for 6 days =)

ltr miting da le.
=)
miss him lots.

in this office i'm a good ger sia.
coz i kip bring food frm home to eat.
hahaha i mami ger ^o^

i miss my idiots terribly too..
so long nv see them le.
=(
nicky, if ya seeing this,
i reeally hope yoo would forgiv mi.
we're frenz, now and forever till we die!
i love yoo guys. MUACKXXXXXX!
thousand hugs to you guys. !

going countdown for newyear! yes la!
kisses to 2006. all my sweet memories with my beloved friends.
wishes 2007 to be better!

4 more hours to go !
rot in this freezing office!
then can go cs mit da liao yes la!

2006-12-26T20:41:00.000-08:00

damn it la.
i'm hell sick on christmas!
wat a nice xmas frm godie.

ya and my poor da xmas got spoilt by mi =((
actually wanted tong one.
already mit up with chris weili kendrick at cwp le.
but relali buya tahan wanna vomit liao.
face turn pale blablabla
=((
then went back to da house.
so xinku lorrx.
=((
vomit the whole night.
thanks da for tcing mi

sorry to spoil ur xmas..

i nv go oso better la.
oso donno will i spoil their mood anot.
i never mean anything abt the toothpaste thing oso.no motive no ordering no nth.
then ask mi buy ice oso counted as ordering mi izzit?
no wat. ahyox donno wat are yoo ppl thinking oso.
wish to clear all misunderstandings.

going work tml nahx.
thou now still giddy.
i know i can mak it!
i hav to go shopping one =(((

muackx da..
i promise a good new yr with yoo ok .
=))

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE.

2006-12-22T12:30:00.000-08:00

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin'
This early morn
The taxi's waitin'
He's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now
They don't mean a thing
Every place I go
I think of you
Every song I singI sing for you
When I come back
I'll wear your wedding ring

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Close your eyes
I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the time when I don't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe I hate to go...

2006-12-21T13:40:00.000-08:00

now at office nahx..
so boredd.
nth to do one..
damn bloody cold =((
cant feel my hands..

now is lunch time. dun feel lik eating.
sitting here lik an idiot.
damn it.

hope ltr got things to do ba arbo damn bloody sian.
knn.

4 more hours to go then only knock off.
haiz. time pass damn slow.
fuck.

ya, yoo muz be so happy outside with donno hu ya.
xmas without mi will be even better i bet.
enjoy then.

2006-12-20T19:47:00.000-08:00

first day at work.
mum last min call mi back
go sis bf office work for 2 weeks.
one hour 4.5 RM

very relex nahx.
kip nth to do one.
so bored one -.-''

miss lousy boi alot.
=))

the ppl there are nice nahx.
went angsana for lunch.
ivan asked a guy name sky to babysit mi haha
tc mi la.
then he treat mi pepsi.
ate mee goreng for lunch.

he help order hahaha
thou abit gongong one but nice guy la.
ivan boss gave him xmas christmas.
chocolate !!!!! and a watch
chocolate is all mine!!!! muhahahaha.

then ivan sent mi home.
so tiired
neck and back and head pain.
donno y.
mayb coz too cold. and face com too long hours.
nth to do -.-''
ivan say tml giv mi more work he teach mi.
yes la. arbo so sian.
poor boy at home so sian.
nvm nahx, meeting on sat le GEEX.

MUACKX lousy.
=))

2006-12-18T12:09:00.000-08:00

woah, my stuffs is growing bigbig fire sia.
all the nonsense going around.

I LOVE ANG TIAN KHOON.
HE'S MY GUY.
HE'S MY FOREVER LOUSY.

any prob with that?

2006-12-14T22:33:00.000-08:00

stayed at home today.
kinda bored staying at home.
intending to stay at home till christmas then meet da.
coz i tot i was starting w0rk soon.
but it end up next month then can work.
donno nahx. stupid ocbc.

but i'm going in sg tml again~
lol
coz it's lil cutie bella's bday!.
muackx bella.
she's so cute can. omg.

AND AND AND
today's FIONA'S BIRTHDAY!
muackx girl.
HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY TO YOO. =))
hope yoo had a great time with ur boyy lol.

bella bleahss
thirsty

SMILE!

2006-12-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

if i could,
then i would,
i'm going wherever you will go.

i'm falling hard.
this is it.
wat a guy, treating mi lik a princess
=)

i love my lousy.
MUACKX!

zhen de.

2006-12-11T12:12:00.000-08:00

mixed.

fuck the ocbc
knn no clothes wear la, work wat shit

cum on! sumone buy mi sum =)
i cant find my fuckign size!

ya, life's been the same.
juz that without lots of ppl.

lost sum,
gain sum.

now i lost them.
i had my boy =)

i love lousy =)

don't ignore mi .

i love my idiots too.

2006-12-08T11:23:00.000-08:00

damn jb la. knn one.
let's burn KL.
fuck them man.
kill italy!
=x

stupid ocbc till now still cannto confirm.
shit the italy icecream at cs.
fuck.

till now still no job ar!
but nvm la.
forever lousy say wan yang wo muhahahaha.
muackx my lousy =))

miss my idiots =)

2006-12-05T05:21:00.000-08:00

i love forever lousy =)

to my idiots,

i'm sorry..

2006-11-30T19:14:00.000-08:00

i've seen.
they are not my friends.

i miss yoo lots...

2006-11-26T23:29:00.000-08:00

if i knew, i wun go.

i received all hints.

i'll leave.

----------------------------------

was so damn tiired didnt blog finsh.

chalet was fun nahx =)

i wan play volleyball again =)

went bing house after tt.

did go watch movie with them.

was tiired and they didnt ask mi either.

so, sua lo.

slpt at bing's house.

bingg, dun help her tok le.

she this time relali too much le.

i'll leave.

ASK HER FUCKING ATTACK MI

DUN TOUCH MY BRO.

cb.

2006-11-23T04:52:00.000-08:00

nihaizaima?
i'm going crazy.

2006-11-22T23:10:00.000-08:00

had a tough night.
woke up.
air seems so stiff today,
hard to breathe in air in and out of my lungs.
called fiona.
went out.
meet kaisin at custom.
i love my frenx..
thou all of us are feeling damn horrible today. cry and cry
but at least we still have each other to lean on.
i'm glad i hav yoo girls. muackx

i guess we dun owe each other anything le ba.
you gave mi wonderful lies.
i return with my fucking tears.
whole night of crying.
that's fucking more than enough tears.

the air outside was no better.
i can feel myself suffocating, my chest seems heavy.
damn.

i always fall for the wrong guy.
i'll nv get into relationships anymore.
mayb for the time being. gees.

thanks vin, for your concern. i know you care. =)

thanks bing for calling too.
ya always there for me at the right times.
thanks for being a teddy =)
feel so xinfu nahx haha. u'll get a good gf one. bless yoo.

my idiots online nahx!!!!!!
so long nv tok to them le =((
but then tok awhile nia. then they go play le -.-''
i WAN MY PRESENTS HOR. grinsss

chalet's 2 days away! YES LAH!
i wan play ball!!!!! GRINs.

2006-11-21T04:57:00.000-08:00

woke up early morning.
mit er zi at cwp.
awhile nia, then he go back le.
poor er zi so tired still cum find mi.
but he's the one hu wan mit one lo. then end up so tired. bloody.

then suppose to go home.
SUDDENLY!
sumone called! was so shock.
i tot is mama, coz is no num.
lol
bing's in jb =))

so long nv see him le.
he's still so bloody tall.
fuck him man.
he came with his sister nahx.
his sister so cute.
then went over to his house.
wait for his auntie to cum back then onli we can go out.

he forever the same one.
SO UNTIDY AR!
-.-' c le oso buay tahan
help him clean up and throw all his er xin clothes into da washing machine.
peii his sister watch teletabi donno how to spell la.
watch halfway fall aslp -.-'
bing oso fall aslp!
lols. still say mi pig!
then auntie came home. c mi like so happi lik tt -.-'
long nv see her oso le .
then we went jusco nahx.
=)))
bing treat mi sushi!!!!! yumS
so nice of him lol.
then walkwalk.
help him pick clothes.
he fucking rich ar, everytime shopping.
si ai mei po.

weird stares frm passerbys.
damn his tallness and his stupid green hair.
-.-'
tmd er xin. feel lik cutting off for him lol.

then jiu cum home le =))

thanks bing nahx.
i hav GREAT FUN TODAY !!!! XD

so long nv see u le. i'm glad ya fine. =)
didnt expect yoo to contact mi nahx.
thanks for everything yoo had done for mi in the past.
i'm really happi to have yoo as a fren nahx.

my ans is still the same as before.

frens are more lasting then love relationships.

i treasure our friendship alot.

2006-11-20T07:07:00.000-08:00

YES LAH EXAM OVER LIAO LA
I CAN SMELL, I CAN FEEL MY GOD DAMN FREEDOM MAN.
NO MORE BOOKS
NO MORE STUDYING LATE AT NIGHT
NO MORE CHICKEN ESSENCE AR!

geex.

i love my er zi XD

2006-11-19T01:48:00.000-08:00

everything's wrong.
my idiots's out.
everything went wrong.

damn.
desmond's a first mistake.
ya, no trust no nth.
shouldnt have anyshit things with him.
xin dong le,
doubt him alot.
xin dong fade.

sumtimes trust him, sumtimes suddenly think i very stupid
haiz i donno wtf is wrong with mi . CCB ONE.

nxt up is chalet.
i was so looking forward to it.
but with the upcuming things.
made mi dun feel lik going.
damn it man.

WAT A FUCKING DAY.
PCB.

2006-11-16T11:59:00.000-08:00

boring day.
slept at 5am.
was chatting with desmond.
sot de.
i like toking to a wall lik tt.
dun understand wat i toking one lei.
damn.

woke up at 2 plus.
woaha so tiired. -.-'
no more puff le
then went down buy.
slack watch tv.
then study phy. finish the tys le.
now is chem turn.
damn, so sian. dun feel studying anymore.
BUT! MUZ HANG ON! LAST PAPER AND I'M FUCKING FREE!!!!

so sian, xiang all so busy no time pei wo =((
lonely ar!
T.T

i donno wth am i thinking.
i wasnt as firm as before.
tong yao le.
it's seeking for sumthing.
it's yearning for sumthing.
it's afraid.

ya, keep it.
it's unfair to des.
ok.
pigg.
everything's pigg.
he's nv cuming bacck.
i know.

god damn .
y cant i juz stop my doubts abt him
Y AM I GOING ROUNDS !
shits man.
cant i juz giv myself or bring myself to trust.???
i dono y am i so within.
y am i keeping.
fucked up.

baa baa black sheep have yoo any wool
yes sir yes sir
three black wool
one for my master
one for my blabla
and one for the little blabla who lives down the lake.

dono wat is blabla.
it's juz blabla!

my mens is killing me.

gays are driving me crazy.
perverts are here again.
go fuck ur mum alex.
if i see u down da street.
u'll feel a slap on ur fucking face.
pcb.

argh! lazy change pad.
stupid blood.
if there were to have a super pad tt wun let my blood drip onto my panti or shorts
TT'LL BE MY SUPER PAD MAN.
it'll be so nice so great right girls?
tmd so ma fan.
wash so mani things.

ok,
mens juz sux.
the end.

2006-11-15T23:21:00.000-08:00

i'm been rotting these few days.
oh man, i'm dyin.
ppl working not free pei mi .
got ppl go out THEN NV CALL MI.
BADIES!
wanna know hu! ask mi urself

job hunting..
sg job
no
jb job
where?
pay so low
work shit ar
=((

so sian, so lonely,
I WANNA BE LOVED!
COME ON!
LOV MIIE LOV MIIE!!! XD

seeing ppl in lov
holding hands
walking tgt
tMd mak mi jealous.

nvm...
single ish gd isnt it?
at least i wun cry for no reason =))

when will ever give myself a chance.
juz one more chance.
juz trust tt fucking guy
y do i doubt so much?
making myself a smart alex
making him a fool.
damn.
and now my fucking mens is making mi moodswings.
getting out of hand.
I'M IN AWFUL PAIN!
damn.

ya, guys cannot be trusted.
tts y i doubt them.
everyone of them.
trust hu?
in the end
pain is felt.

ya, cant be perfect.
aint pure , ya?
one
two
three.
johnny caught a flea
flea fly johnny cry
one
two
three.

the end.

2006-11-13T06:39:00.000-08:00

soooo mani ppl woke mi up thsi morning =.=
first ish sis going to work donno looking for wat BONGONG GONG IN MY ROOM!
then next is mami.
she cum in vacuum and mop da floor-.- at 8am in da morning HOLY AR!
then ahma came in ask mi help pick up mami hp coz she donno how to
i slp on the sofa hugging da hp -.-
POOR MI AR.

then the donno hu donno wat frm donno wat canada cum
then i hav to clean up my table wait for them to cum
say 10 cum then 12 then cum -.-
I'M DYING AR KNN ONE.
then went back koon
1230 mami woke mi up again!!!!
then go out makan
I NEVER EVEN BATHE AR
knn one. i juz wak up nia then they all outside door waiting for mi
SOT AR
-.-

then makan.
then came home.
wah jitao koon ar.
3 koon.
430 XIANG CALLED AR
MAMI SHAKE MI UP!
fuck one -.-'

but then. sorry nahx.
i shouldnt throw temper at nii de.
FORGIVE WO OK
I GIVE U CANDY LTR WHEN WE MIT
XD

then waited for sis to cum home
so i can use com.
i had just spent 1/2 hr copying pics frm kaisin's blog
hahaha
had to put it in friendster coz cannot put in this com nahx.
not my laptop
so mafan, so much work =((

now everything's in my friendster!
=)) i loved them muhaha

my idiots going taiwan next week nahx.
i choose chalet over their taiwan
haha
=x
i oso dunwan u all to pay for mi
next time when i gt money then go with u all ok?

i going crazy ar.

so long nv contact le =(((

MA DA SAD SI WO AR.

2006-11-12T04:48:00.000-08:00

ytd.
woke up,
called fiona.
then 3 plus went in sg
meet up with via
went town find fiona,kaisin and yuewei
wahlao all wear skirt
=((

then went over to vivo city find the rest
so bloody big knn one.
but was fun la.
had a happy day =))
went back kinda late
WENT KAISIN HOUSE SLP =))

slp tgt sia.
GANDONG SIA. =X

went home at round 1 plus?
kaisin house gt bigbigbig kakakka.
scare si wo -.-''

my beloved forever black hair.
dunch cry like tt again ok
YOU SCARED THE WITTTTTTT OUT OF MEEE
T.T

stupid -.-'

days are gonna be bored.
my idiots going taiwan =((
leaving mi alone here =(((
YOU SAY I NV PEI U ALL THEN NOW I CAN PEI LIAO U ALL GO AWAY T.T
SOBX LA. GO LA GO LA HUMPHXXXXXXXXX!

got a job le nahx!
at sis bf office =))
but donno pay yet.
=((
I WANT MONEY
geex

2006-11-10T22:07:00.000-08:00

one more paper to go..
i'm done with my craziness.

cried again last night
out with my idiots.
SHO LONG NEVER SEE YOU GUYS LE MUACKKKKKSSSSSSS! <3
i'll nv leave i promise hahahaha
our promise ok!

onli 2 weeks nv c you guys.
all CHANGE LIAO LO
ALL BULLY MI LIAO HOR.
FOREVER FOREVER HOR
COPY MI HOR!
BLOODY ONE.

all dye dye hair hor
wan make mi hor coz i still gt one more paper cannot dye HOR
bloody one!
the 4 of them gt different shades of brown.
goldbrown, copperbrown. mist brown. ashbrown
donno wat shit la all nonsense
then i wanted brown too!
then we'll be named as THE BROWN FOREVERS.
LMAO

nonsense.

sis gonna help mi dye hair! yay!~
then can save money buy other things liao.
heeeeex

out out out~
=)))

2006-11-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

O lvls O lvls O lvls!!!

chiong chiong chiong!

haiz, studying like hell man.
never been so hardworking before haha.
was so fucking tiired .
so mani things bugging me.
i'm going crazy.

concentrate! CONCENTRATE!!!!!

-.-''

i wish i could stop.

i knew.
all i had,
i knew....

misses my idiots XD

2006-11-03T04:25:00.000-08:00

sooo long nv post le.
hmms, these few days like siao .
rush my fucking art.
damn, after the paper was lik damn hell for mi.
kokhao's bday celebration was canceled coz we all too tiired.
then chia cant drive haha

so we went out ytd instead.
chia came fetch at 6 plus.
ate dinner at the where, but chia say not nice =((
then went to holiday plaza.
walkwalk
eric brought his first DVD hahahaha
then went to danga bay,
sit at marybrown drink smk.
then kokhao not feeling well nahx,
so he rest in the car.
then after awhile we went to the car.
then then then!!!
kok kok drive chia's car!!!! hahahhaa LMAO
chia was scared to death
KEEP SHOUTING HAHAHA.
so fucking funny

then we went to play pool
=)))

i first time play hahahhaa
i'm sorry for kip losing =x
but i went in 2 balls, i'm so damn happii hahah.

then we went to a lan shop.
onli 50 cents per hr OMG .
SO CHEAP,

then went home le.
reach home already 4 am le -.-'
holy .
having o lvls i still lik tt..
but nvm nahx, i'll study =))

and today!
woke and cannot find my sec 4 ss book HOLY.
it's gone!!!
then called mani ppl
heng god loves mi lots,
ruiliang say he gt !!!
i was so relieved,
=.=

studied ss the whole day today but onli finish 2 chaps.
2 chaps already use up 10 pgs of my foolscap holy.
tonight gonna chiong finish my sec 3 tb.
then tml finish my sec 4 book and abit of chem.
them off go home!

to pigg.

sometimes i really donno wat u thinking.

ya so cold ay times.

but sumtimes u seem so close.

i swore to god.

i'll only fall for a guy , when he falls for me .

arbo onli i fall then he nv fall , so high up.

tmd, mak mi fucking xinku trying to get to him.

damn disappointed .

fuck !

2006-10-27T08:38:00.000-07:00

i saw him.
there he was.
right in front of my sight.
my eyes are stunned at my tv.
that's him.
it's him right?!

oh god. please take me away.

those moments.
terrible feelings,
it all came back.
things i thought i've let go.
i know, right at this moment.
i hadnt.

the sight, seems melting me. i was rooted.
my heart wanted so fucking much to let out the pain.
but no tears .

thoughts, pigg.xiang.
monkey.
everything got mixed up.
i saw his face.
he was there aint he?
it's him. right?

that's mine.
it use to be mine.
everything's wrong.

i wish i was the one there for you.
turn around, i'll be here.
always.

2006-10-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

i miss everybody.
everyone that came across.

went out with my idiots.
things had been upsetting me so badly.
i wish i could stop everything, and make things right again.
thanks sweeties. for being by my side.

nicky's drunk
till he went crazy shouting my name haha.
he was so noisy that ppl around keep staring
AND I BOXED HIM! =X
and he didnt even know haha

junwei brought two of his gfs haha
his ger and his beloved guitar
silly idiot.
then xiang played guitar
ahhhh, at sum pt of time i wish i could put down everything and mak him mine!
but i know cannot.
he sang alot of songs nahx.
if any other gers were there, confirm kena sot daoooo
haha
had great fun nahx.

miss all my frenz in sch, back in p sch.
i wanna thank god for giving such blessings.
i love my family.
i miss my papa.
it's been so long since i last saw him.

xiang.nicky.eugene.junwei.ganma.lynn.cherryl.ying.huii.zhiizhii.
juli.shilah.hadi.huihui.sarah.zhixuan.aiwei.lihui.amanda.sinyan.pohling.shiqi.
weekeng.huiling.siewying.huijia.aisha.syz.jesslin.joann.kaisin.fiona.via.yuewei.
chiawei.kokhao.marcus.limze.eric.alzan.zaha.and mani mani mani more!
junhao(kor).kaixiang(didi).jinbao(didi).tommy.peace.pigg..

i miss everybody.
i wish i could put all of u in a box and keep it with mi to my grave
LOL

2006-10-25T22:03:00.000-07:00

everyday, every minute, every second.

walking here and there.

body's in sch, mind's flying.

wonder to where.

withered from his mind,

i had no where to belong.

afterall,

i finally knew, how he had felt the other time.

when i treated him far more worse than he's treating me now.

guys around me.

everybody flirts,

gays flirts, lesbians flirts, straight flirts.

one day they would say how much they would want you to be their girl

and the next day it's a different story.

guys go round poking

while girls wait around for their guy to come home.

wtf is this world about.

ya, i'm crazy, he's crazy, she's crazy.

everybody is.

crazy about their guy, girl, work, studies, family.

everyday filled own minds with tones of doubts.

will i beable to meet the deadlines?, where's my guy?, who's my girl with?

everything comes to an answer.

nothing.

so to all the girls around the world.

if your guy's a total jerk, let go pls.

why wait for their fucking ass on your house sofa.

so wat if their fingers crossed over with yours.

their minds are thinking abt the girl they poked earlier.

wat's the use of being so faithful with a damn guy when at the end of it

all they say was, there was another ger, ends it all.

and all they do is leave you crying fucking hell calling god to help

when they have all the fun.

come on girls, stand up on your own.

to gays, lesbians or huever's hurt.

come on and stand up.

of coz you could live a better life.

so wta without them.

new ones are always better.

ya i know old shoes are more comfortable.

but of coz when you wlak out on the streets you would wan yourself in custom style .

ya?

face the damn fact.

they arent there anymore.

they're once yours,

that's suppose to be you, not her.

so wat.

sometimes you cuddle yourself on bed with your warm blanket

or when you wake up early in the morning

longing for a hug.

juz a touch frm him or her.

wat's all this for.

i'm sick of having these feelings.

it's gruesome.

wth am i saying all this for,

ya all i know is use my mouth to say, but i'm actually feeling terrible everyday.

i'm alright, i'm fine.

totally.

2006-10-24T18:08:00.000-07:00

i wish my com is still working.
i dont lik xiang's com! slowpok. juz lik the owner =x

ok, the stupid slowpok doesnt like the post i had juz updated.
ok i juz wanna say.
quit bothering mi.
for heaven's sake.
PLEASE.

i aint the one hu ask him to reject yoo
i aint the one hu ask him to giv u a freeze ice shoulder.
and ya, mi and him are juz friends.
i didnt snatch him.
he aint my guy anyway.

he used my name doesnt mean i'm really his right?
me , close with him doesnt mean i had liking for him.
so pls get this clear.
he's a honey pot, bees around.
ya one of the bees. so tak ur stand and giv ur best if u really wan him.
i hav nth to do with all this.
stop flooding my sms, msn

get yourself a life.
he dun like you, pls face the fact.
stop ur buggings.
i aint his mama or wat i dunch know where he is or wats he's doing.
and juz coz i dunoe u say i lie to u
u say i'm a bitch i'm a slut i'm cunning .
juz coz i donno wtf he is doing.

wth do u wan frm mi?
YA A NONSENSE!

now BACK OFF!

and xiang insisted i add this ..
pls stop doing all this.
we could be great frens.
and stop calling my frens up.

2006-10-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

last night was out with my idiots =)
i miss them lotslotslots.
thanks for being always there when i really need sumone.
after my Os i promise to mkae it up with u all ok.
i'll spend everyday every min every sec thinking of u all haha.
thanks xiang for cheering me up.
and nicky and eugene for da chocolates !!!
love yoo sweetiiiessssss <3>

today meet chia at 8 at custom.
head to sch, waited for yuewei and fiona to come.
had our breakfast then went to library.
they had maths with yek.
while mi and chiawei was fighting behind hahaha.
damn him alright. stupid FOREVER ZUI LAO DE.
=x
then walk to backgate with fiona.
meet meet chia and marcus outside sch.
puff chit chat.
lol topics flowing water.
wat ex wat stead wat after O play gers LMAO.
all nonsense.
went back at 3 plus.
on the way suddenly feel lik watching movie.
then chia start his nonsense again.
making buay ta han. stupid him -.-'

came home koon nahx.

tiired.

i know, both sides are in wrong.

mayb wat i said in my tt post is really promoting her bad stuffs.

but this is my blog, cant i write wta i feel?

all along, she is my fren.

since sec one.

once my fren, always my fren...

i really wish things will turn out better.

and that all of us will be lik last time

together.

everybody now muz study hardhard ok.

tml's monkey's bday.

hereby, i wish my lost love. Happy Birthday.

and to pigg, i'm still waiting.

no matter wat. i'll wiat to as long as i can.

i cannot say ' i'll wait forever''

coz i know it's not possible.

but i juz wanna let yoo know.

it's my fault for lettng u go the past.

and now, i wanna mak it up, i dun care whether u think i'm juz using u ask my replacement for monkey or wat.

i'm real this time. it's yoo.

and

onli yoo..

2006-10-22T03:09:00.000-07:00

went out with chiawei.kaisin.eric.kokhao ytd.
=))

chia and kok came at 1 plus.
we headed to kaisin's house.
poor kok.
he so early kena woke up by chia aha.
sweet of kaisin lending mi one of her shirts.
coz my one all in washing machine then i was wearing long sleeves.
stayed at kaisin's house till 6 plus.
then mi.chiawei.kok.eric.kaisin.kaishen.kaiting.kaiting's bf
go makan STEAMBOAT!!!
on our way there was lik wah chia drive so fast
then half way his car nearly brk down -.-'
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA

the steamboat was nice, too much food so full.
then after tt went for billard.
the guys played so weird, lmao.
then went drink tea =x

then jiu go hm le.

=))

had great fun.

it's been so long.

i miss my pigg

=((.

2006-10-19T20:19:00.000-07:00

MUHAHAHAHA

ytd was so fun.
after tt stupid practical.
haiz was so fucked up abt wa i wrote as my salt
fucked!!!

then went to music room to detain till 130
inside was funni oso la.

after tt went cwp with the big group of them.
poor chiawei kena bully till lik wat lik tt
muhahahaha

we're late for our grad day
went in at 5 lik tt
and everyone already sit down le.
walked in, sit at the back.
then everyone had to go up stage tak the stupid file.
was nervous, had to shake the loke's hand, and i forgot to tak it with both hands.
when loke say . '' TWO HANDS!''
then i juz laff =x.

when limze went up , ATTENTION TO NA!
when kaisin , ERIC!.
haha was fun,
then everyone mak fun of mi when the white spec guy went up -.-
i was so paiseh lo =/
haha

everything was fun, juz tt it's damn stuffy in there.
so bloody warm and stuffy!
was sweating lik hell.

ytd was the first time all of us sin g our sch song LOUD!
muhahaha
we were all standing on the chair and sing!!!!
so fun.
the teachers oso perform, dance and sing
everyone's so high!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUN FUN FUN!!!
=)

after tt went canteen!
they say gt drinks and food
everyone was crowding around the drinks one =.=
lol! poor limze and fiona, kena bully by all of us.
LOL.
we've the candid shot! muhahaha
so nice , =x

after everything, we're all sweating and hot lik hell,
all went out 137 smk =x
then the S class mly ppl there with sum chi ppl.
then they started playing KAKA! OMG, SO EEE OK
all of us are lik screaming and theres so mani kaka around! =.=
then zhiwen very funni go chase via around! hahahaha

waited everyone to reach, kokhao and eric finally came =)
then all of us go cwp, they makan, blablabla
went carpark smk.
then sum other ppl came, via's frenz.
so mani of us at the carpark -.-'
i saw pohling nahx.
but, she lik dao mi lik tt.
nvm , so long nv c her le. tak it as i dunno her ba.
was smsing xiang all the time deciding wanna go out anot.
wanted him to fetch mi at cwp but he haven off work =((
then finally we going back jb le.

went back with kokhao, alvin, chiawei.
was tiired so was quiet on the way.
waiting for the 950 at custom so long ok.
then we all tok and tok and tok.
on the bus, wahlao. so dulan lo,
the fat guy beside mi was pushing and the ppl infornt had to scan the card.
so i ' HEY!'
then the ppl infornt scold mi -.-
=/

mama was so weird,
she called and offered to fetch mi frm custom.
it's been lik years lo. since she cum fetch.
=))

then waited so long at mobile for her. coz there gt jam.
then reach home. bathe.
waited for xiang's call.

went out with those idiots. =))
junwei gt new gf again! a pretty ger =)

grad day le. i'm so sad.

i wish i know u all a longer period of time.

yuewei, fiona, via, kaisin, kokhao, chiawei, eric, alvin, limze, marcus,

and plus others. =)) i donno how to spell ur names -.-

i'm really glad i had you ppl with me at the end of my sec sch life.

i tot i would nv had such fun .

BIG HUGS TO ALL OF YOU! MUACCCCCCCCKKKKKXXXXXX! geex.

sorry to my idiots, coz of my studies i nelgect u guys,

i promise after my Os i'll spend lots of ime with u ppl =)

love you guys lots. =)

to the recent happenings.

i may not be totally involved in those stuffs.
but, seeing everyone lik this. realli sad.
i wish you would make things clear.
i wish wat i said in my precious post is juz my misunderstandings.
i may not fit to say anything or do anything, but i wish better for things.
tak care of urself.

2006-10-18T06:41:00.000-07:00

haiz, was upset over lihui's blog.
i donno y she say them till lik tt.
mayb she didnt realise.
she's the one hu made ppl frenless.

i've known her for so long.
on the way, seeing other ppl including myself got left out by frenz.
juz becoz we kept quiet doesnt mean you could do all u wan.
i kept quiet till now.
i nv really say anything bad or ask them to get the hell off.
i dun hate her, i still treat her as my fren. but i wonder if she does.

now, seeing how they react, i know lihui still mean alot to them.
and i wish lihui will realise tt she's wrong.
she should be happy that after all that she had done to others,
she still have this bunch of frenz for her.
and yet she's reacting this way.

i really donno wta to say le.
juz very disappointed as well as the others.
everyone's not saying much abt it.
but i know they don't feel good.

it's already the ending of sec sch life le.
why do you make such things to mak everyone upset?
if u juz wanna make use of them juz lik how u use others in the past
then GET THE HELL OFF. DON'T HURT MY FRENZ.

you use to be the reason ppl hated sch.
people around all knew wat ya like.
but everyone juz kept quiet.

and thanks for ur hurts to me in the past 5 years.
but it made me grow and let me have frenz now at the ending of sec sch.
i always wanted to hav things well lik last time with u
but i can see u nv wanted.
u know wat u had done.
treasure wat u have now.
don regret ltr.

i miss pigg.

badly.

2006-10-15T13:30:00.000-07:00

so long nv blog le.
my poor com i still down.
=((
sis say after my o then repair for mi =((
and my tv is down oso!!! omg.
i'm dying at home.

days are so long and busy.
so tiired everyday.
so long nv meet my idiots le.
miss them lots.

been slping alot this weekends.
chia say i change alot le.
mayb i really did.
i'll change back.
i promise i will.
control my temper and blabla.

very upset abt pigg.
ya, juz get into an relationship then the end for my upset for now.
tts wat i always did anyway.
bad huh?
=)

i'll get over it. lik i always did.
thanks xiang and nicky for ur numberous calls.
making me feel lots better.

i dislike sch so much.
caught by mr tay while trying to run out of sch.
=((
i think i'm crazy.
haha

drawing my art and my sis kip saying i'm making it ugly =((
by tml have to hand in 10.
i've done 7.
gd ger ya? =))

he said i'm not sensible.
he said i'm fucking silly.
ya i really am, infront of him.
staring at my phone everynow and then.
but the smses cuming in is always not him.
kill mi pls.

aww, missing and missesssss
i wish i could have my head washed.
everything's gone.
and tt i could start all over again.
i guess i wun retain.
i wun get into so mani relationship
i wun get myself so shedded.

i'm withered from ppl's mind.
no body tot of mi.
and frm my previous blog post.
i'm reali sorry.
it wasnt wat i mean,
not choosing apples or wat.
we're still frenx. forever.
and tts wat pigg told mi too.

it's in my art work,
but in my art work. i wrote i nv looked back anymore.
but i am now.
looking back, looking at my regrets for letting pig go.
if i had choosen him, i wunt have to go thru ppl lik felix.
making mi damn fucked up.
i wish i was still mi.
i wish i still the happi me.
i wish i could still smile even when i'm down.
now i couldnt hold back.
i throw temper at ppl.
i cry for no reason when i was laffing halfway with my frenx.
i;m sorry for hurting ppl in my past.
sorry to vin. i cant help at all.

i wish i could love myself more.
i dunwanna kip thinking of die.
i dunwan to have this feeling tt i'm living for the sake of living.
i wanna live for sumthing. a goal in life.
i had none.

i wish i could stop myself frm depress.
i wish i'm still pure.

love me lik u did before.
come back. and dun go .
i'm still waiting.

2006-09-29T06:34:00.000-07:00

everybody is pissing mi off.
i donno y.
i miss my idiots.
i wanted to have sumone to tok to.
i'm sick of toking to guys.
they dun understand mi.
i need a ger fren.
i need a relationship
i need some love
i need some comfort
.

i miss pigg
he dun miss mi.
i wanted to love pigg
but he jux wanna be frenz.
mayb i should juz tak xiang or nicky.
no
i cant.
i cant bear to hurt any of them.
i love them too much.
they are my life.
my support.
i cant lose them.

ya i get a guy better
tt'll control mi, frm my fucking emos.

and to tt donno wat ann or anny or wat shit ger
pls la ok.
u like xiang then go jio la cum scold mi for wa
i dun even know u?
and u juz cum scold mi for snatching ur xiang away
WTF LA OK KNN
HE DUN EVEN LIKE U ALRIGHT
SO U HELL FUCK OFF FRM MY LIFE
GET OFF ANYHOW CUM SCOLD PPL
SOT KIA NO MOTHER TEACH SIBO
PCB DE.
AND! I'M NOT EVEN HIS GF OR WATEVR DE OK
I'M JUZ ONE OF THE GERS TT HE HANG OUT WITH
TTS FUCKING ALL.
get a life alright..

my com is dead,
hell dead
damn it. i miss onlining!
i miss everything on msn.
my chats my nonsense.
ya i'm crazy
going KI SIAO AR
knn.

i don wan say goodbye.
dun always ask mi to tc.
dun always wanna get away with ur those tc words.
i juz wanna be by ur side.
i miss u.
pigg

2006-09-27T04:37:00.000-07:00

my com is spoilt!!!
cant online anymore =((

2006-09-26T04:45:00.000-07:00

had a bad night ytd.
haiz, realli needed sumone to tok to badly.
but i went to slp.

i'm a bad person,
a bad fren,
a bad sister,
a bad gf.
everything ish bad.

i dun even know hu to tok to.
tot of xiang, nicky,junwei.
then i tot of piig.
i miss him alot.
haha.

he doesnt even care.
lik he said, he hates mi,
once the hatred is gone.
he'll forget abt mi.
and i think he forget liao le.
ta wang ji wo le.

i hate art too.

X'(

sobs...

2006-09-25T03:36:00.000-07:00

had maths p2 today.
the paper sux ok.
damn it.
ya all papers sux x(

after paper went for art.
frm 11 plus do till 4 plus! holy.
was going to die ok.
hand pain lik siao.
very sour haha.
then the toopid chiawei kip dunwan go then bo bian havta help mi paint abit.
BURDEN!!
went home with alvin and chiawei

to junwei.
watever happens, i'll still be me.
and i already tell them properly liao le.
juz tt they dun understand.

i missess babypiigy hahaha.
he called mi today.
so happi x))
AHHHHH
I'M GOING CRAZY! x))))

but then, last night received an email frm mi,
mad emi kinda. hmm, sad la hor.
but then. i'm still happi tt he cares! haha

today my 2nd sis's bf is cuming!!!
i'm odler then him lei!
ai seh.~ jie di lian haha. =X

2006-09-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

last night was fun fun fun.
out with the usual idiots, with lynn, and few gers.
i told them abt the coke and mentos thing. then we all try!
lol the effect was big lo. most of us kena the coke.
coz i tot the effect will be lik tt time mi and my sch mates try one.
but last night one was lik BOOSHHHH~ then we all smell of coke -.-''

last night had ridings on bikes.
but was lik kinda awkward when nicky and xiang both ask at the same time to sit their bike.
i went onto xiang's one, coz lynn says she'll tak nicky bike.
ok blablabla.
then RIDE ON!!!!!
was so fast ok, i feel lik i'm gonna fly out off da bike -.-'
poor xiang kena scream by mi haha.
i was so scared can?
and the worse thing is, till now i stil dunno how to get onto and off the bike properly.
then everyone laffs at me. x(
had abit of drinks coz ltr all still riding.
then all ride back to xiang's apartment.
the bikes are nice ok,
xiang's one in blue and white, nicky's in white. eugene's in red and junwei's in yellow!
with all those stupid lights.
ya everyone had fun.

actually i dun relali trust xiang and his stupid bike!
coz he always drive car. so ehhh. SCARED LA -.-'
haha.
heard frm via there's chocolate SKL
so they brought one pack and we try.
the taste very weird.
then nicky goes round giving to strangers!! hahaha
ppl look at him lik, siao kia lik tt.
making us all laff.

had a scolding frm junwei nahx.
i feel bad la.
towards everyone.eveyrbody.
first it was monkey. i tot i still lik him?
but after tt i donno y sumthing in mi tells mi to holdon to jc
donno wtf la. i lik very hua xin u know?
after wat i know abt monkey's playings
but abt jc, was a very long story la.
when i was witl monkey, he's still on my mind la.
then now i'm actually waiting for jc.
but he says tt he doesnt wanna bother abt the past.
he juz say remain as frenz blablabla.
then over the other side, gt nicky and xiang.
ahya fuckedup.
no matter how mani times i say.
frenz means frenz.
no more...

i wish i could understand tt statement too..
or mayb i feel bad towards jc.
tts y i'm lik tt now.
but my whole mind was jc jc jc jc jc
damn.

pls kill mi.

i think, all along the one i'm missing wasnt monkey.
it feels different when thinking abt jc and with monkey.
ya, i learn sumthing again.
the more i learn , the more i love, the more my heart cant get enuff.

2006-09-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

i realli sot liao.
i slpt at 5 woke up at 630.
suppose to be 6am but i late la hor.
haha.
had prawn mee for breakfast
the ice milo sux ok, lik drinking plain water.

mti up with marcus go do art.
paintpaintpaint.
then pei marcus go makan.
saw a nice car, gt no roof one and is a female driver. woooooo.

donno wats wrong with chiawei today ok
he kip scoldin mi, kip saying mi. damn one. chew his brain ar!!!
suppose to went off at 11 but i change to 1130
now my painting mainly left the linings and the other coatings!!!
but i thiNK miss tay dunlik. she dun care us one. donno y.
after wash up went off at 1140, rushrushrush
my arms still had paint on it lo.
kip sms jie lo. kip ask wat time is hayati cuming.
in the bus to larkin very funni nahx.
2 angmo sit infront of mi. with lost of big fats bags.
the ger donno toking wat la say till lik, u wan cum here again?
and the guy say '' NEVER!!'
hahahahaha. bet they had a hard time lining up at jb custom with all their bags.
then sis came fetch went burgerking mit up with hayati and my lil baby bro x)
hayati is my stepmom nahx. last time is la now donno is wat liao.
she's so pretty can. lol. an dmy bro, so nonsense now.
noti lei, next time confirm eveeryday distrub gers one.
after makan liao sis and hayati went outside tok ma, then left mi and ahboi
ahboi kip play lo, then kena bully still smile smile.
stupid one. i kip scold can! KNN BULLY MY BABY BRO AR.
went back at 4 plus lik tt.
reach home ji tao koon lo.
so fucking tirred.

now oso wan koon liao.
gonna die soon.

i know you don't like me le.
tts y u kip saying dun bother abt the past anymore.
but..
i'll still be waiting.
i started waiting on mon night.
now is the sixth night.
i donno how to be frens anymore.

2006-09-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

0h man.
today woke up at 4am!
damn it lo, donno y whole night cant slp, kip thinking abt eric jc eric jc wah going kisiao.
at custom head damn giddy lo.
reach sch dun even hav da mood to makan.
thanks kaisin, fiona, via, hui for helpin mi paint my painting x)
then go cwp .
watched the show haunted apartment.
stupid show.
today was fun la.
laff lik hell.
after tt donno wat happen to fiona.
we all went b3 wait for her
then sum stupid cb kia very irritating.
keep kpkb fight fight sot one.
kip bang door scare wo.
kan na lan one.

went hm with chia,limz and kok hao.
LIMZE IS AN BIGBIG IDIOT OK HE KIP BLUFFING MI
mak mi look lik an idiot.
damn.

so tiired today ar.
tmls till nig g0 do the stupid art.
sumbody pls.
help mi paint.
x(

today cannot tahan liao
then sms jc.
haiz.
i donno la,
damn fucking sad.
but didnt reealli show it.
ya, smile lik an idiot.
and tt fucking eric. till now still dunwan reply or pick up my call
donno wtf is wrong with him.
knn one.
today call till dulan. CHEE BYE.

2006-09-21T06:19:00.000-07:00

tiired today.
came home at round 6am.
woke up 730am to go sch!
early morning wak up then quarrel liao.
wahlao my mood already enuff liao lo.
can u imagine ur own mama calling u a slut? fuck alright.
then sis wan so late!
so sorry to cw lo, coz he waited 45 mins at custom =X
dui bu qi nahx.
last night i donno wats wrong with mi la.
i go and quarrel with eric.
bo tai bo ji lik tt..
damn my mens.
so early morning msg him sorry,
then he nv reply.
then kip nv reply. nv piclk up any calls till now!
damn it.
the spamming ,the hot topic.
yw printed out sum.
was toking abt it in sch.
AND AND AND
I FINALLY START ON MY PAINTING!!!!!! X)
i'm so happi can.
but i donno how am gonna do my write expressing those fucking colours.
but nvm, step by step ba.
die then bobian liao lo.
it's so difficult to paint ok.
fuck one.
then the stupid miss tay, wahlao.
i hate her!
bababa.
went home at round 2 plus 3?
reach home 4plus then koon liao.
woke up mama brought food for mi.
-.- till now still cold war.
called eric again, but he didnt pick up.
wahlao.
i damn sad lo.
=(((

tml ish phy paper!
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE! X)

2006-09-20T04:01:00.000-07:00

geog paper was alright .
i didnt study. onli read sum of alvin's notes in da morning.
during brk time things happen nahx.
those lame ducks with no coconut are crazy.
went for art, damn sian can.
anyhow draw. damn lo.
jayson kip disturb mi! idiot.

after sch hang round with them.
then go hm le.
i wonder they how le.
=((

i miss my chiobu.
he didnt online ytd.
nv contact no nth.
or am i stupid now to wait.
ya, i guess mayb i really am...
=((

2006-09-19T03:53:00.000-07:00

today's chem paper was super duper duper hard.
it's so difficult that i atcually gav up halfway.
but i still attempt to every qus.
but i know confirm fail till very jialet one.

heard abt jeanie stuffs.
was so shocked lo.
hope she's ok.

the stupid hong seng kip ka jiao mi on our way back to custom.
bloody one. donno wats wrong with him. !~!!!!!

early morning msged pig.
we msged msged till i think he fall aslp.
i don't know wat i really feel abt u.
but wat i said last night was true.
i dunwan to have 2nd time le.
so i say i'll wait.
and i reali will.

i'll wait for the qus u nv managed to ask the other time.

2006-09-18T05:44:00.000-07:00

ss paper sux today.
i didnt read the fucking qus properly.
and i wasnt on my mind.

maths paper was power ok
it was fuck FUCK FUCK!
haiz. it was hard.
ya it was real hard.
but i guess if i study thiNk can do better ba haha.

i'm still waiting for you to auto talk to me lo.
you aint bothering, you aint caring.
u don't even bother to make things right.
suan le ba.
end of everything.
tak care of urself. babypiig

2006-09-17T08:24:00.000-07:00

to jitcheong .

how could you?
you offlined juz lik tt last night.
you know how i fucking felt?
ya, i guess you don't know how i felt.
when i found out so much.
and you knew it all right from the start.
yet.. you allowed him to do all this to me.
i know i'm not much of a friend to you, but don't you find urself too much?
that ya actually helping ur fren to play round lik this.
and moreover.
we know each other.

or mayb you juz hated me for treating you lik nothing that time.
and ya i felt bad, real bad.
coz i regretted choosing the wrong guy.
all the way back at the first time we met.

you know how betrayed i felt when i knew wat u had done to me?
and ya i could still laff play with you,
i didnt wanna lose a fren coz of monkey.
i was with monkey, and i tot he would be safe and trust worthty
coz i tell myself nomatter wat theres still you, ya my fren. u'll tell me.
but u nv, u help him lied. u hid from me.

how would u feel, if it were to be you standing in my fucking shoes?
don't i have the right to know everything?
why wouldnt you tell me.
i feel hell awful, not onli coz of monkey, but my disappointment in you.

my friend, doing this to me.
can i even blame you? do i still have the rights,
or do i even have any fucking rights in the first fucking place.

you never failed to cheer my day up, with our arguements.
thanks for being here at times.
but i guess i don't need anymore.
after u walked off, offlined last night.
i don't feel like talking to you anymore.

2006-09-16T03:03:00.000-07:00

came home at 7am
woke up at 8am to go sch. FUCKING TIREDDD.

sorry guys, i know i shocked you guys alot last night.
but, i really cannot control anymore.
thanks for cuming in at midnite to drive mi in sg.
thanks for pushing my head onto ur shoulders
thanks for wipping away my salty tears
thanks for hugging me!

and i know you guys donno wat do oso la hor.
3 big guys, with a ger lik crazy haha
sorry x(

lucky din drink much last nite.
arbo the poor chiawei will be waiting at custom till pig drop frm sky haha.
and my mama is very smart.
she wash all of my uniform at the same time.
THEN I WEAR WAT TO SCH?!
i spent 15 mins iron my poor skirt trying to mak it dry
but still n0t dry enuff.
walked around in wet skirt! -.-''
head was fucking pain.
brought dougnuts x)
head to sch.
finally finish my tt stupid blue colour test. IT'S ALL BLUE OK .
went home at 1.
called moi chiobu ask him wak up go buy lemon for his throat.
awww, i miss my babypig.
reached home at 230.
so tiired lo, head super pain.
ji tao die on bed. -.-'.

And i wanna say!
I LOVE YOU IDIOTS DAMN LOTS. X)
and and and
moi blur babypig hahaha

i miss you guys now.. mit tonight 0k? haha.

nothing matters anymore.
thanks babypig for telling me.
sorry..

2006-09-15T09:20:00.000-07:00

i feel awful.

i could not cease the pain.

ya, you're playing.

those are nothing to you.

this blog meant nothing to u at all right frm the fucking start.

wat am i? huh? you are gruesome.

but there's nothing i could do to alloy my overwhelming feelings of inadequacy.

my heart hovers around, my mind is tottering.

i'm going insane.

yes, i know i am.

no matter how hard i'm holding back,

how mani smiles, tears words i fake.

i could still see images of you , visualize the shape of ur face, ur eyes ur nose etc.

just cant be castrated from my mind.

sense of helplesssness , no matter how self deception i am or how i detested you, i cant contradict my misses.

damn alright.

childlike lucidity..my imminent death, repleted voices of urs.

2006-09-15T04:10:00.000-07:00

eng prelim sucks today.
i know i'm gonna do badly.
and the stupid fan is behind me
making mi shiver and fucking cold.
didnt eat during recess coz i dunlik the food -.-
after sch was drenched again! fuck, damn hell cold cold COLD!

went cwp popular buy maths stuffs then headed home.
brought dunkin dougnuts =)
YUM!

your actions are not making you cute.

it's call noise pollution and it's making you look so fake.

always wanna seduce guys. YUCKS.

castrated from my list.

people are plagued by your disgusting-ness.

they'll soon know who is the authentic one

stop your self deception. you aint chio.

don't you know the genuine sense of reailty?

ya just unappealing, gruesome.

don't you contradict , ya been detested.

over the years i had an extra skin over my sensitivity, so your words and action would cease to stop making me wince.

people like you should be dejected.

continue to enjoy immensely, you'll be treated back like how ya treating other ppl now.

2006-09-14T04:15:00.000-07:00

i wish that she would die.
not that i wanna curse her
but it's reality that i really pray that she'll die.
and i wun cry when she realli does,
i'll open a chalet and celebrate it.

all she does since the day i know her is just going round tearing bonds apart.
i donno y is she lik tt. does tt makes her happy?
god damn her.

without her in this world.
people will be happier.
there will be peace , at least in my world.
the sight of her makes me wanna puke.
awwww

ok, enuff abt her, today~~~
art so so mani periods -.-'
gonna die.
had recess earlier. x)
ate le then they bully again wan mi put plate.
of coz i'll eat the slowest ok i'm a ger and ya 2 are guys! holy.
after sch went for art again.-.-'
was dying 0k draw till my hand were shivering.
waited for stupid chiawei to finsih his stupid art.
ya he's realli stupid tak out all the clay thing then donno how to arrange back -,-
own art work oso donno.

it was raining hard ok.
then kena rain on bus was fucking cold.
then tak paper wanna cover the hole aircon thing
but kena suck in -.-
LOL, had a great laff ok.
then sum tupid indian came onto the bus and splash water!
kena me lo!
i shouted they lik very scared HAHAHAHA.
i'm power ok x)

went cwp buy makan was damn hungry!
went back on the way to larkin.
damn hell jam!
slp in the coldcoldcold bus -.-
brought puff then the uncle c mi cuming then auto tak out M liao haha
then he kip asking mi wats my num la my name la. i juz smile laff alff -.-'' lik idiot.

mumi's sick =(( donno wats wrong with her.
and yuewei sick too! she vomited .
hope she's ok .

TML IS PRELIM ENG! GOODIE LUCKIE TO EVERYBODY!

i miss my chiobu! x)

sometimes, you'll have to use your heart to see who's the bad and who's the good ones.

i wish you'll all see the real her.

2006-09-13T02:16:00.000-07:00

feel deadfully awful today.
i hate the feeling of brain shutting down.
couldnt stand the temptation of covering my eye balls with my eye lids.

today i know i wasnt me.
don't know whats fighting in my mind.
small things makes me pissed off.

curse the loathsome creature who sent me home.
earning his younger generation's money.
it's actually nothing much, juz 1 RM
but i'm still pissed! fancy seein gme a student and asking for so much for such short distance.
pucker up all my hatred
i crush every single note and gave him .
curse him.

today is the 3rd day since i last heard abt him.
nvm. it's none of my business anyway.

Dn't love me for fun boy.

Love me for a reason.

Let the reason be love.

2006-09-12T06:22:00.000-07:00

2006-09-11T03:14:00.000-07:00

sch opens.
holiday not like holiday.
everyday go back sch lo. even on sat! damn sian.
today chiawei ish late again!!!!!!
damn him.
nearly miss my breakfast in sch!

sat with yuewei at centresquare.
went back class .
was reading shilah's book instead of listening phy lessons.
the book was very interesting.
she's doing HIDDEN for art prelim.
power sia she.
but abit scarey la the book, gives me goosebumps.
abt real life sprit all that kind of stuffs.
during chem alvin was crazy
he ask y i always ask chiawei when going home.
of coz la he goes home with me, i don wanna be alone u c~
i think he jealous chaiwei pei wo nv pei him HAHAH.
but in the end everyhting's the other way round! they say alvin is jealous coz i always go home with chiawei! WTF OK. haha but everyone was teasing -.-

during recess karmi( donno how to spell)
was crazy ok, he came to our table and anyhow pin point and say
" YOU ERIC? YOU ERIC?''
LOL lo, makes us all laff.
then kok hao donno kena wat.
went for art. and start my stupid colouring.
damn it lo, for the whole of 2 hrs plusssssss
i haven even finish half.
and mine look lik germany FLAG! DAMN. green red and yellow -.-
ok then i ask miss sim, does it look lik pop art? she say y dun i try the colours the other way round -.-
and ya i'm gonna do it all over again. damn, it's taking too much of my time!
marcus was crazy abt his composition
haha gav him sum ideas but he drew out look lik the poor ones are swallowing the rich ones hahaha
toked to aisha nahx. guess it's ok between us, but i still dun realii lik tokin to her.
but anyway, was pissed at alvin lo.
not coz he say my art ugly
is abt his attuitide towards me the whole day!
wahlao. donno la, dulan. and marcus was toking sweet for him, saying tt he's a nice guy juz tt he's stupid.
watever it is. i wish he would change for the better.

went cwp , he go top up his card then i go buy food.
was damn hungry! *bites*

reach larkin saw nicky and eugene siting there freezing! hahha
coz it's rain, and they're kinda wet haha
and i walk lik a duck ok the stupid water soaking my shoes and socks. YUCKS.
had milo while we toked nahx.
his words kinda woke mi up a tiny winy bit.
ya, they know me best.
donno y nicky always know wat i'm thinking all that.
he juz suddenly say.
'' keeping tt blog doesnt make him come back.''
i was shocked ok. and i cried. T.T
then eugene kept asking huz tt fucking monkey tt makes mi reject 2 wonderful guys beside me
hell~
mayb nicky's right. i had withered frm monkey's mind.
wats the use of holding onto this fucking blog.
wats the use of wearing his ring round my neck
wats the use of wearing the brown thing.
he wunt know and he wunt come back.

i hadnt moved on, i tot i had.
i'm here and he had left.
ya, short and sweet memories.
it'll nv be the same.
came home and there's no one at home
slpt awhile.

tml's pratical test!
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE X)

i'm a strong girl,

i know i can do it.

as i always did....

2006-09-10T03:44:00.000-07:00

hmms, was at xiang's apartment last nite .
along with nicky eugene junwei and 3 other gers.
and ya was weird.
but everything's ok now.
ya between me and xiang.
all alright and fine.
happihappi goofy~

ya i didnt realli tak his words.
or i can say i dun care anymore.
it doesnt matter wat he says to me.
ok juz be lik this. lik that normal~

i watch tv so tiired.
fell aslp
and when i woke up theres no body around! i gt shocked ok
i tot everybody left me behind
then when i put my feet off the bed.
i stepped on sumthing!
i gt a hell stun ok.
and it was nicky -.-
i stepped onto him HAHAHA and he doesnt even know
along with the rest of them all on da floor!! hahaha look lik i juz killed them all on floor lifeless
HAAS i kicked the guys! but no reatcion
ya thanks to my slpyness that i didnt drink alot.
HAA!

i go mak breakfast.
holy on his house dun even hav a single egg!
and so i went down to buy
then cook
lalala~
then suddenly sumone touched me!!!!
frm behind! holy holy.
and it's tt fucking xiang.
ya and he gt a nagging frm me.
and~ dun anyhow touch mi ok! bloody ass

then he send mi home.
x)
everybody's still slping.
and ya we quarrled abt tt ger
he said it was his fren, juz a fren
and i go ya ya ya ya~
watever, it's none of my prob
AND HE HIT ME! FUCK YOU.
fucking hell.

i hate you!

reach home, online.
then my chiobu onlined!!!
ahh missed him .
haha and he bloody lo he lied to mi!
HUMPHX *bitex*
then he told me abt his adventure last night~
haha i laff hell lot.
he lc with a guy! omg
hahahaha
moi chiobu was drunk and got molested! haha
and hmms. my chiobu is a guy ok =)
moii cutie ger haha.

was at home watch tv tok on the phone with xiang.
and ya we're normal.
and tt stupid nicky kip forcing mi to admit abt me and xiang.
cb one.
but..
hmms.
nahx. we're juz frens.
the promise i made.
will last one nahx.
no going back of words.

sometimes, u'll have to live with it.

even if you felt humiltated.

so be it.

this is you and you have to be strong.

i don't care abt you and any ger.

i wun feel anything, i wun be angry anymore

i wun care . more.

2006-09-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

haiz.
yep, didnt pick up his call all that.
and ya i'm going crazy.
i see no point anymore.
i ain't ur girl, theres no nid for u to explain anything.

i guess coz of the brking thru and coming forward of everything.
i become stronger! YEAH! STRONG!
ya! wun cry! wun sad! mouth is other ppl's one
they say they fuckin piece
but that doesnt make me a tupid slut.

ya, thou not feeling very well.
but trying to ya.
smile baby, COME ON AND SMILE.
going out tonight.
with hu?
wonder will he be there.
i bet things are gonna get awarkd between us.
and ya he's gonna come over and say his piece blablabla
that he's sorry blablabla he didnt mean to blabla.

and blablabla
i don't wish to care anymore.
now first in my heart is my o lvl art!
no more minding of xiang.
thanks nicky for everything.

and today finally settled on my art stuffs!
yeah! starting on my colour test now x)
WEEEEEEEEEE

2006-09-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

last night was hell.
i've never been so fucking humililated in my whole 17 years!
shall not elaberate it.
thanks nicky for giving mi a ride there.

To Auntie & Uncle.
i know you'll be here readin gmy posts.
so here i am again trying to be rude to you again.
so wat if you are rich?
you may be a well repected person in your business line.
but to me. YA NOTHING.
hear tt? you two are the most lousy people i've ever met.
you have no right to interfere my life.
you have no right to humilate me in any of your evil ways.
and please make this clear.
i was never your son's gf.
like you said i'm only 17. AND THAT DOES NOT GIV YOU THE RIGHT TO SAY THOSE STUFFS TO ME JUST COZ I'M A TEENAGER.
i never wanted your son's money or watever shit.
hu wanna marry a guy whose mother is such a person?
and i nv said i wanna marry your son!

if you really think you and your money could give your precious son his happiness then good luck to you then.
and now i understand why your son left you old people.

and let me repeat again.
if ya so baobei your son, THEN HELL LOCK HIM WITH CHAIN AT HOME.

ok, sue me all you wan.
COME ON AND FUCKING SUE ME.

damn..

and xiang, nice way ya?
how could you ...

thanks chiawei and alvin for cheering my day up.
ya, i'm not sad for wat happen.
i'm glad that it happened.
and i'm hell glad that the girl in your apartment picked up my call.
and ya. why am i swallowing down everyhting?
don't come callin gme trying to explain abt the ger blablablabla
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ALRIGHT?

don't come waiting for me under my apartment.
don't call me.
don't talk to me.

i don't wish to see you.

have hell fun with tt girl.

i cried..

real hard.

did i?

2006-09-07T06:18:00.000-07:00

i guess i got to be strong.
even if i had to put up a brave front.
i had to get it thru.

tonight. in a few hours time.
hopping to settle stuffs.
i'm going crazy now.
kinda weird to mit his parents so late.
but they're onli free tt time -.-'

somebody please.
tell me i'm doing the right thing....
bless me alright?

PAUL TWOHILL'S OUT!
I'M SO SAD!!! X(
<3 PAUL!
MY CUTIE SWEETIE PIE!

i'm scared x'(

2006-09-06T18:49:00.000-07:00

haiz.
was so troubled abt wat eugene told me.
he say nicky say one. which made mi more sad.
why is everybody hiding things frm me?
x'(

i did not qus him anything.
his words that night resounded in my ears.
those weird things that happened overlapping in my mind.
ya, eveyrthing's matched.
the loophole's been filled up.

i guess i need to have a tok with xiang, and his family.
damn.
didn;t know things got so serious.
and no body told or show anything!
fuck.

today went sch nahx
gd ger aint i?
due to tt toopid chiawei we ate prawnmee again.
reach sch saw alvin.
suppose to study my chem,
but end up playing chiawei's clay.
helped him abit coz i no strength to mix his toopid stones.
then lots of ppl came x)
we were writing all out names on chiawei's clay haha
nicenice x)
but sumone said sumthing tt made sum of us kinda uncomfortable.
i wish you would juz die.

went kfc for lunch again! juz lik mon haha
then went home le.
in the 170 bus donno wats wrong with alvin and chiawei ok
they juz kept laughing and laughing! on and on and on!!!
thye laugh till tears cum out those kind ok!
fuck.
then after sum forcing.
they say juz n0w when the fat indian auntie sat down beside mi
i sort of 'jump' up down up down
-.-' lik gt ppl sit beside too fast or wat those kind tt made u jumpy on ur seat
and they juz kept laffing ok. damn u guys!

then at the custom one toopid ar-bu-neinei
suddenly wlak pass mi and say '' ahhhh muooo'' then he smile so widely at me
HOLY HELL FUCKING GOD OK.
i gt so scared.
and chiawei kept laffing at tt .
and we walked out of the passport stuffs the arbuneinei was standing there!
then i grab alvin and faster walk past.
DAMN YOU CHIAWEI! TODAY EAT WRONG MEDI IZZIT? KIP MAK MI HOR.
BLOODY HELL!

sometimes, you'll have to think

and find out why she's never yours

instead of sitting there thinking when will she ever be mine.

2006-09-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

ahh.
was so tounched ytd.
XD

six roses.
5 purple and a pink one in the middle
XD
it's a small one, but enuff to move me nahx.
holy god.

if my hp can send pic into my com i confrim put bigbig
so pretty.

still wan fool me.
hai wo tot wat happen.
u oso nt romantic one lo
anyhow.

haax
anyway it's nice of him x)
but hmms, i made him a lil angry.
sorry abt it. *geex*

xiang: nahx, gei ni de la.
me: huh?
xiang: no hand izzit? bu hui na huh?
me : ur brain spoil ar, or u drunk ? me yc lei not ur other gers HOR!
xiang : -.-''
me: u gt so mani gers, giv mi for wat? giv them they dunwan izit?
xiang: chiobu shi lai bai mei de
me: so u saying i ugly bu la? they are display on outside ma, then u gt 2 gfs la?
xiang : -.-'' (abit dulan liao)
xiang: ni bu yao then throw la!

and tt idiot realli tak and thr0w OK!
i go pick up ..
you know? he juz snatch it frm my fingers and *booooosh* onto the floor!
fuck.

i look lik an idiot ytd, and eugene kept laffing at mi!!! damnsssssss

but was realli touched la haha.
i asked xiang ,
y me?
he's so yandao lo.
rich sumore.
mi lei?
short, too skinny, ugly hair, no figure. no char. bad habits, pimple face with lots of scars.

all he say was.
'' wo bu dong ''
-.-'
waste my saliva.

anyway, i made him sad again.
not you. not nicky.
not anybody esle.
coz i love you guys, alot.

today did nth nahx, juz slpt the whole day thru.
piggy right? x)
if ya my fren, dun qus me abt xiang and nicky's stuffs alright?
=)

you can say i'm afraid
but, i rather not love anymore.
i wish to continue smiling.

2006-09-04T20:32:00.000-07:00

i'm very happy today x)

happy coz, it's been a long time since i actually had ger frenz with mi eating lunch x)
thou not tt close but still, i dun feel rejected. x)

today woke up at 530. omg.
i'm so so so tiired cans.
coz sis hav to reach her office at 7am, so i have to set earlier
reached larkin bus station at 6AM! holy.
i find a seat and juz sit there and fa dai
took 170 at 630.
miting chiawei at custom
and wasnt feeling veyr well
guess coz of the lack of sleep and the stupid bus tt kept jerking!
poor me. feel lik vomiting early in the morning.

go makan prawn mee x) nice.
reach sch go artroom first.
then marcus came then go classroom for chem and phy x)
was tired but manage to finish those stuffs tt cher ask us to do x)
then went to art room.
heard tt miss tay wun be cuming back at all! then my art how?
holy,
got her number frm mrs ong
smsed her , she nv reply
then chaiwei help mi call her
and she picked uP!
mrs ong, u said she wun pick up, -.-''
then she ask mi mail my stuffs to her
then havta tak her mail add frm donno wat hao one i n artroom
then actually tot of cumin back art after lunch
then chiawei lazy! so went back sch tak mail addy first then go outside sch.
marcus;kaisin;fiona;evan;kokhao;eric;alvin; was there others gone.
k nvm so we waited.
i was damn hungry
everyone is!
but havta wait for the others.
alvin dono wats wrong suddenly go for art! omg mircale!
went cwp had kfc with the lot of them x)
it's the first time i actually hang out with them x)
fiona;kokhao;evan;kaisin;eric is making everyone laff
lol theya re funni, and the auntie too.
i tot they're gonna get into trouble but everything turn out to be a laff x)
then hang round tok tok tok
then jiu go home le.

at larkin was walking towards the taxi stand.
meanwhile lala~
then *BOB* ! someone knocked my head!
i screamed ok. i tot hu ? wtf
it's shuaishuai de nicky with bandage on his arm .
haha haven heal yet.
hmms, went for a ride then went for a drink at 4 plus pm in my sch U!
holy.
and we went and play arcade
LOL, imagine me in arcade! holy.
donno y with nicky xiang they all i wun feel awkward, or paisay at all.
they are the ones hu had seen the worse side of mi.
drinking, crying, half drunk,messy hair, woke up lion hair watever de.
but not my naked body of coz.
and ya, feel real comfortable with them x)
went shopping too , nicky's loaded XD
no la nv spend much of his money . he brought mi earrings x)
then i told him after the earrings at fareast 7 for $10
then he say this week bring mi go x)
so nice of him haha.

poor him to have to stay at home for so long coz of his wounds
his daddi says he dunwan c him at office!
holy. actually i didnt know much of his family stuffs
and onli today then i know he gt a personal driver! omg.
stupid rich guy.

reached home. then online le.
i shooed him home nahx.
an di didnt wanna be in my sch u for so long!
x)

nicky say xiang mayb tonight cuming in.
to buy cigg -.- then SHUN BIAN cum c mi -.-
wat a badie!

oh i pray,

when i close my eyes,

i can still see visions of you on my mind.

i pray.

2006-09-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

i couldnt help .
nor can i stop,
images of you filling up my mind.
leaving tiny spaces for other stuffs.

i know, ya good looking,
girls would queue for.
well so i think you shouldnt hav let mi in the first place.
ya, watching tv, lots of ppl resembles you.
i donno y too, but they really do.

today i watched a show.
a ger, on a guy's bicycle.
and ya, i fucking helled cried.
mayb it's really time for a new guy.
or mayb i juz cant tak the fact that ya fooling me.

it's been months, since we last met.
i'll nv forget the look on ur face ,
and how fucking sad i was .
when you told me to go.

i guess i couldnt let go coz ya the first guy whom i realli wanna treat well.
ya, everything round's me reminds mi of you.
even this blog.
i made this blog coz u say u wanna it to be only for us.
as my previous blog has got felix in it.
ya, this blog.
i know u didnt like it.
you find it too bloody.
or mayb you find me too bloody.
of everything's that happened ,
my body's tattooed.

don't come saying you'll heal
don't say you dun mind
coz those words of yours kept crossing thou the traffic's red
and as it crosses , each time it gets so fake.

and i wonder why do i choose you to make myself a good gf.
ya, ppl reading my post muz be laffing at how naive i am.
and, i guess i really am.

sweet moments. stay for no one.
it'll turn into stones.
candy-coated reality.

2006-09-03T20:31:00.000-07:00

i'm shoo tiireddddd x(

out with shilah ytd
studied chem,
till now my head is still filled with hydrochlorine acid powered marble chips watever shit la!
ate munchies and spag x)
after tt mit binyong for awhile
he kips taking puff frm mi! dumbass

went back jb find lynn i think not sure of her name
xiang they at jb at her house then cum fetch mi at larkin
x)

reached home at 11.
i'm tiired.

2006-09-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

hmms, went to giant with mama ytd.
ok, was damn angrry the whole shopping process.
first thing is, one stupid idiot guy snatched moi mama's parking lot!
next, there's no more trolley ! and so i had to walk all the way to the carpark and look for one that ppl had left behind. i walked lik a duck! it's raining.

in there was ren shan ren hai.
ppl all with no brain no sense of zhi dong.
u stand in the middle waiting for trolley to bang u izzit?
damn.
everywhere i go there's ppl blocking my way.
and mama is oso very cute she g0 walk thru those ppl leaving patheic me behind with a fuckign trolley tryin gto catch up with her.
and so.
the next min she's hell gone!
ok nvm, i go get my stuffs.
went o the daily stuffs corner
ya in my mind was lik the list running down
grab moi shampoo blablkabla
then i turn! BANG! i hit a lil boi
i was lik sorry sorry i go hold tt kid up
then sumone fucking pushed the trolley and hit mi!
pain ok. stupid ppl . donno wats the rush oso pushpushpsuh. fuck la.
then went to the 'pad' corner. ok was looking at the brads when i hear mama's voice and a saleger tokin to her
and ya she's promoting the brand 'kotex'
then i took my brand and pull mum away
come on~ face the fact that no one wants the brand kotex. it's lousy
ok then shopshopshop kids running around and my trolley gets heavier and heavier
i didnt hav the strength to kip turning corners and avoiding hitting ppl
and ya it's national day so theres whole lots of ants walking round mi.
was trying to tak my cookie frm the very veey top.
wondering y they put so bloody high
then ah ha! i saw one tanned hand reach it b4 mi! i turn
WAHHH so shuaii haha then he hand mi the cookie
.. was abit paiseh la coz i too short cnanot reach.

ok then was the queue
holy god the queue is sooooo long
waited one hour damn.
and tt guy was there! hee hee
smile to each other nia.

then waited at one corner for mami to cum bacck
when i saw a ger omg she dress lik indian and all the gold stuffs all round her face and hands holy
cant help but kip staring. ya, i know it's rude.

reached home raining bigbig drops
things were damn heavy so mi and my mama decide to wait till ivan cums then ask him carry up =]

hmms, then chatted with binyong till late
hmms woke up kinda late today.
i opened my door and i FELL!
stepped onto a cloth on the floor
damn.
butt pain.
slacked , watch tv, online.

waiting for the moon to cum then i can go out x)
wonder huz cuming to fetch mi x)

2006-08-31T09:18:00.000-07:00

argh
i overslpt. fuck
i woke up and i look at my clock its 6am!!!
damn i jumped out of bed
called chiawei immediately
and his fone hor wahlao
u fucking go change ur fone ok
callcallcall kip can0t cal
then went back room
then got up go toilet
then i brin gmy uniform all tt
tot of going sch although late
then i think think
i go back to my bed.
got up again on com
went out awhile
cum back
watch cinderella
x)

qian onlined then she say she going sch now! and its onli 9am!
holy all so early go back for wat.
stupid.
donn0 should i go sch now anot.
i nid to show misstay my introduction -.-
but it's teacher's day will she care abt mi? damn.
if i go oso sian.
so i think i stay at home better
x)

but i'm bloody hell boredddddd
x(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MALAYSIA!

2006-08-30T03:26:00.000-07:00

went out last nite.
mit up with xiang they all
nicky was there too.
juz lik normal again he toked to mi joke with mi.
but i was still very sad abt aisah thingys
then as he tok i suddenly cry i donno y
i gave him A BIGBIG HUG
i guess tt shock everyone there haha
i told him dun ever ever treat mi that way again.
if he ever do tt again i'm gonna burn all his precious anggong

they were all toking abt the new ger junwei met donno when la
i sit one side smk lo
then e toopid xiang came and knock mi head !
damn you lo.
then was lik telling him abt wat happen in sch
then i was lik trying so hard not to cry ok!
the atmosphere was suppose to be sad when xiang suddenly say
'' ma de, giv him hug infront of mi. NOW WHERES MY ONE!''
you shouted you dumbass!
then suddenly the atmosphere changed coz i was laughing lik hell
i dun owe u a hug ok idiot u gt so mani gers ask them hug la. assholee

was feeling better then join the others.
ate ice kacang , mee goreng, satay
tot of calling chiawei aak him wan tak car go sch anot
but donno y his hp cann0t call one.
then cum home bathe change go custom
stuppid chiawei still blame mi
blame mi coz he cnan0t hav his burger earlier
in bus kip er er er er er bloody ass
is ur hp gt prob ok u stupid.

reach sch was tiired in class la
didnt tok to aisah and syz
then i c aisha face ar
wahlao i donno i feel disgusted
i feel lik slapping her
fucking hell
sit with weekeng siewying huiling during lesons
was toking and toking
went off for recess then go tak my prelim art qus
damn lo all difficult
i'm gonna die lo
burn my sept holiday with art

went out of sch gt ppl fight
then c show haha.
went cwp with weekeng;siewying;huiling
hmms walked round c all their idols stuffs
brought a chickenwing coz i was damn hungry
then brought earrings too x)

then went off to foodcourt find chiawei marcus they all
suppose to go home tgt
sat there tok awhile then all go puff
then jiu go round cwp to find his laopo's stuffs
was lik walk till i head pain , cannot tahan
went hm rain.
c chiawei! ya a burden!
i'll thr0w eyes blinklbink at u haha

at larkin the ticket uncle toked to mi again.
he seems trying to hard to speak eng to mi
so funny
i guess he mean no harm ba.
x)

still pondering wan go sch tml anot -.-'
i think abt miss tay then think abt the fukcing walk
damn
stupid sch with stupid thinkings

2006-08-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

today is a real bad day.
lost 2 frenz juz lik tt.
didnt mean to turn it sour.
mayb its realli my fault.

huijia;weekeng;huiling;siewying
marcus;alvin;yuewei;chiawei
lihui;fiona;shilah;hadi;yeenern

thanks for being my side today.
simple comfort words from u guys realli made me felt alot alot better.
x)

maybe she's right, what for holding onot sumthing tts not gonna mak mi happi?
since so xinku then jiu suan le, dun care le.
x)

read friendster's horo .
"look at the people in your life in a much more impersonal point of view. Just because you love them doesn't mean they are perfect. They're human; they make mistakes -- just like you."
x(

thanks xiang for bothering to care to know wat happen.
i'm juz glad i have you people in my life.

everybody is juz there to have fun,
whats teenage life without fun?

but still , i feel awfully terrible.
x'(

nicky` i still waiting for your action lo.
i dono wats wrong to mak u angry for so long
you don't tell mi, how i know?

2006-08-27T21:07:00.000-07:00

went over to nicky's ganma last night.
first time see his ganma.
last few times she wasnt at home.
she very funni. first c mi then '' AHYO Y U SO SMALL ''
=.=
then kip ask mi eat this eat that.

sat down round the corner of the room.
xiang,eugene,sum gers and mi.
the gers gav mi the mixed vodka and sprite
i guess nicky was getting better,
he was smiling.. ya he sure was.
toking laughing with those gers and xiang and eugene.
ya i didnt tok much.
i donno y i juz feel so awful.
i kept filling myself with those vodka
ya, he didnt tok to mi, not even a look eye contact with mi.

then i couldnt tak it anymore i walked out.
i was lik damn ok,
trying so hard not to show my fucking tears
gav an stupid excuse and g0t out
sat downstairs puff.

xiang came down shortly too.
we toked. with silence within.
i was coughing and sneezing , damn. stupid flu.
xiang asked mi lots of qus.
which made mi gav him a diao look.
stupid...

went back up .
acted lik normal.
ya he smile i smile too then
he wanna act happy fine then i'll tak it as he wasnt there at all
fucked.
don even know wats wrong.
i told xiang i dunwan cum find nicky anymore till he fucking wak up and tok to mi
AND I SAID IT REAL FUCKING LOUD
hope nicky heard it.
fuck..

came home, koon abit wak up watch tv.
ya ya going to to study. prelims ya.
i'll be a goody ger alright?

i'm fine alright?dunch worry.
you and nicky will always be my best bros.
we'll remain this way, now and always.
i promise.
i never wanna lose neither of you.
i love you guys . alot.

2006-08-26T12:43:00.000-07:00

got up at 7am.
guess the doc's medi didnt help my slp at all.
getting ready for sch
gd ger right? go sch for art =)
but mami was very slow.
she going move house for yanqi again
so mafan
bring so mani funni things there
liangcha cucumber donno potata or wat for the family and the ppl there -.-'
she gt s nagging fmr mi.
and she pretends not to hear it!
damn i hate you.
and i had to carry the fucking fridge down OK
it's bloody heavy!
by the time we got out of the carpark its already 830!
and she still wan go buy donut for them -.-
holt,
it looks lik i'm the one moving house not yanqi!
anyway the donut was nice >.<
ate one in the car , my PE shirt kena chocolate! damn.
had one share with aisha in art room, actually wanna let shilah try but donno where she fly to.
reach sch at 930 lik tt
saw marcus on the way up
lol his hair very high today.
in class sit with lihui fiona marcus and aisha
all of us sqeeze in one table. poor us.
finally drew sumthing ms tay likes
but she donno wat am i trying to show
damn i oso donno wat am i trying to show =(
i'm dead meat!

went off at round 1.
walkwalk with aisah at cwp.
brought a pokky dots bra straps =)
then buy ramil burger bring hm .
reach home at round 2 plus
bathe ate my burger
and i think the medi i ate last nite took effect juz now lo
i was so drowsy in the bus
damn.

xiang called ask wat time cum fetch me.
then suddenly he ask.
i lik nicky izzit.
coz i cry lik hell ytd
silly him.
use ur coconut to think!

2006-08-25T07:16:00.000-07:00

g0t up early this morning.
couldnt slp.
650 reach custom le.
he's still not forgiven so i went to sch without him

wasnt feel very 0k
kinda weird walked very slowly
head lik spinning
kip gt blank image
damn, very xinku.
in class, the fucking segar cum quarrel with mi
dulan i walked out of the class
sit outside the staircase and koon there LOL
i'm dying 0k
ate panadol then rest there
yeenern , shila, yuewei came =)
thanks guys i kn0w u ppl care =)
then segar came interupt my rest
then argue with mi again
then aks mi g0 back cls
damn it lo.
sickbay so far u wan mi walk all the way ?
u wna mi die izzit
i alreayd s0 xinku lia0 juz let mi rest will die izzit
i in sickbay or in cls oso wun attend ur lesson
u say i sick then go sickbay dun stay in cls
S0 NEXT TIME I FUCKING GET OUT OF UR FUCKING LESSONS
HAPPY B0? KNN, LCB.

after sch didnt went to 2.4
was going crazy in the hall so hot.
reach hm, xiang called.
went in sg again. he giv mi a tablet he always eat when he giddy
then felt muchmuch better
went to nicky's ganma house
i c nicky i was lik
WTF OK
he and his nice figure and his handsome face and his pretty
all gt blackie blue
damn
x(
he doesn wanna even tok to mi
i oso donno y i ask everyone they all say donno
even xiang oso dunwan tell mi
damn it.
haiz.
went off afetr awhile coz i dying le.
reach hm then tlel mami i wan c doc
then bring mi go c doc.
saw hong feng there haha.
was shocked.
my mama say y he s0 big size. holy
haha
m0i mama's cute ok =)

going sch tml for art.
haiz i'm going gone case .

2006-08-24T04:18:00.000-07:00

feeling bitterly awful today in sch
my running nose, my sorethroat , my mens cramps AND MY HEADACDE!
damn..
today sch gt a jumbu sale
brought 6 jellies and a mug =)
wasnt actually hungry but force myself to eat
stupid art 7 periods!
and miss tay accept none of my work
haiz i relali donno wat to draw le.

after sch i wanted to faster go hm coz i realli cannot tak it le lik going to faint anytime
then tt stupid idiot kip walkwalk slowlsow wait for ppl
u wan wait for them then u go home with them la
dun come tok to mi anymore

reached home, alot of ppl called
eugene cherryl, lynn, weiwei, xiang
but nicky was no where to be found.
heard tt he's at his ganmum's house.
i called, but the ganma say, he doesnt wanna tok to mi.
wtf lo.
wat hav i done wrong ?
u angrry with mi coz i nv go find u izzit?
or wat? at least tell mi wats wrong can?
i couldnt go find ni coz i realli not feeling well these few days.
i'm sorry alright? realli sorry....
if u c my blog could u pls.
tak it as i beg u ok, go hospital hao ma?
at least a checkup.
alright?
contact mi asap..
i've been waiting for ur sms very long le.
i dunwan wait.
understand?

recently alot of cats wor
juz now sis cum hm gt a kitten followed her
LOL
but the kitten was so small and so dirty and so skinny lo
then i pour sum milk for it
but mami all kip nag
say ltr shit pee ourtside then will kip cum backk
haiz but i bu she de so small
=((
nvm then WO YANG THE KITTY!
save money =]

wo zhen de hen tan xin ni..
dun be lik this le hao ma?
i promise tml friday i'll go find u hao ma?
but u muz at least tell mi where ur ganma stay ma
arbo how i find u right.
go TPY one blk one blk find ar -.-'

2006-08-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

didnt slp well last night
haiz was worried for nicky
he didnt wanna go hospital
he was badly injured lo x(
stupid robbers FUCKING DAMN YOU FUCKING HELL .
='(

was alright in the early morning,
then donno y suddenly feeling sick
runing n0se and my throat hurts.
then slowly fever cums along oso
damn.
BIG SORRY to my classmates
coz i attuide to them today =(

haiz so mani things happen ytd
i'm going crazy.

now jb is really not safe wor
=((
so mani robbers
and got alot of ghost
in KL's redbox which is sumthing lik K-box
cctv snap dao ghost! holy.
10 ppl go sing song
bill cum bill for 11ppl
then they show them the cctv video gt 11 ppl
gt one extra person sit at the corner with head bend down
FUCK
donno hu lai de
scareyy

2006-08-22T03:55:00.000-07:00

MY HEAD'S CRACKING
DAMN..

2006-08-20T18:10:00.000-07:00

19o8o6

woke up early in the morning.
online awhile
msg junhao
make sure tt he is awak b4 i go out
meet him at cwp but he was late for 10 mins!
he's so skinny! so black
giiv him his present pei him go makan.
makan le puff then he go home le
so ke lian him wor
night guardduty then next day till cum down wdl
x)
i know ya tired .

then went c&k brought a nicencie one
cum out of shop saw m0i cute shilah haha
pei her go buy her earring at Xcraft
brought sum stuffs for my shoe x)

then went back jb find xiang they all coz they all at city square
wonder y they lik jb so much sot one
bring them go makan bak gu teh
yumyums~
I'M IN LOVE WITH XIANG x)

2oo8o6

TODAY ISH JULI'S BIRTHDAY!
LETS ALL SING THE BIRTHDAY SONG

happy BIRTHDAY to uuuuu
happy BIRTHDAY to uuuuuu~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

muackxx!

it's morning 910am.
and i'm here blogging
it's a damn early morning.
going for my toopid facial
next few days i'm gonna becum a snake again peeling skins off my poor face!
toopid sis say 8am wak up 9 go makan
now all still dunwan wak up an di'm here really to go out!
bloody.
misses xiang x)
+ nicky + junwei + eugene + etc~~ > they force mi type one!!

lols, dun kill mi ok u are all m0i beloved =]
muacckx

2006-08-18T05:44:00.000-07:00

had a damn dream last night
i dreamt my bag all filled with KAKAS!
holy -.-

morning heard sum mewing then g0 open the staircase then realli gt cat!
bigbig one.
in sch was boredd.
got upset over sum stuffs.
oral was lik fuck ok
damn lo, i'm gonna get low marks for it.

after sch waited for marcus to cum out then go cwp
coz he wan tak his hp
then went hm with kaisin , chia, alvin
custom was ren shan ren hai
no bus
so we walked the causeway x(
poor us..
my bag was damn heavy that my shoulders hurts alot
then chia finally gav in and help mi carry x)
but i carry his bag la coz lighter
then walkwaljk wahloa going to die lo so hot
and on the way WE SAW THE DONNO WAT THING IN THE SEA
OMG LO ITS SO BIG EEEW SCAREY!

reach lakin dun even bother to call mum juz tak taxi hm
was looking for the cat but it was no where to be seen.
then after i makan and bathe blablabka
i hear the mewing again
i wanted ot feed it but EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE OBJECTED -.-
then i bring the cat down
HAD A FUCKING HARD TIME TRYING TO COAX THE STUPID CAT INTO THE LIFT AND OUT OF THE LIFT!

damn. ppl were lik staring -.-'
the cat donno huz one lo
donno how to tc cat sib0 let it run and lost
then now put downstairs lik very wat lik tt
the cat was very veyr veyr lost i can ccc!
=((

i wan to kip the cat =X
but mama say i siao =(
saddenn

2006-08-17T02:40:00.000-07:00

was fucking tiired today.
mani things happen last nite.
thanks xiang for driving mi around.
x)

head now very pain nahx.
stuipid art gonna rush le.
so difficult to draw =((

tml eng oral
SCARED SIA.
x((

2006-08-16T03:45:00.000-07:00

damn the stupid 913 in da morning.
i nearly fall ok
heng chaiwei was beside or i donno fly where le

was sad la today
but then afetr sch not sad le.
everything's fine x)

tiiredd.